Running

I lost my temper last night because again the same faeces head took my choice away from me and didn't tell me.

I took it out on my shower wall.

My right wrist is now swollen.

I hate asking for help

Hey @avant-garde

I'm really sorry that you were put in another situation where your agency was taken away. Did you want to talk about what happened?

I know that asking for help can be really hard, but is there any way that we can help today?

I wrote this last night

@Ru-bee

I contacted the people who are meant to be helping me move tomorrow and turns out B told S that he's not needed that B and J will get my furniture from C's mum's shed and C will meet us at my new home in the afternoon.

I'd organised S to help me with my boxes in the morning with C's ute

B told S that it's not needed

B didn't tell me ANY of this

And let's throw in the fact that I've never met this J fellow which is C's step dad.

A stranger is going to know where I live

I'm hearing how this changing of plans without asking, or even letting you know, could tap into other times when you've had your agency and choice taken away @avant-garde, and having C who is a stranger to you know where you live could understandably make you feel less safe.

Is this typical behaviour from B, or might this be them not realising how this might affect you?

@Ru-bee

It's J not C that I haven't met.

It is typical behaviour of B

Oh sorry, that's my mistake @avant-garde

That's very frustrating, is it something that you've spoken to B about before?

@Ru-bee

Yes multiple times, he's the deacon from my church and I've even talked to my elder about it and he's talked to him

@Ru-bee

Previously that is, not this time... I'm anxious that they won't take me seriously, that they'll just go "this again"

Yeah I get that @avant-garde, it can be hard to speak up when we feel like we might not be taken seriously or understood, but I wonder if maybe that "this again" thought will be regarding B who has been repeating this behaviour despite being made aware of the way it impacts you

@Ru-bee

I don't know but it's not like they'll actually do anything to change the behaviour