Running

Oh wow @avant-garde that's soon!! Moving house is always A TIME, especially cos the end result is kinda... not having a 'safe' home yet. Like logically yes it is safe but psychologically it takes time for it to feel familiar hey.

Cat? You're getting a kitty?

I have to skedaddle but I should be around tomorrow - good to chat hun 😊💜

Can I just stop needing to be happy now?

Are you feeling okay? @avant-garde 💛

@AuntGlow

Everyone at church was so happy I finally got a place but they don't know what it's been like to be constantly uncertain of what's next and to have grown up in the house I did!

I've been "adulting" for 27 years! I was 8 years old when I started taking care of my mother!

Having stable accommodation makes me no more an "adult" than any other experience!

I've been "adulting" longer than some of them have been alive!

That makes sense... it sounds like survival has been what you have known for so long. And whilst it is a really positive achievement (I am also happy for you!), it sounds like it's bringing up a sense of vulnerability for you too? 💛 @avant-garde

@AuntGlow

I don't know regarding the vulnerability

I know that I feel like I don't measure up to their expectations of an adult.

I shouldn't need to justify my life.

I get that, it sounds like the need to 'over-explain' what has happened in your life to be where you are today can feel like a lot... how is this all sitting with you this afternoon? @avant-garde 💛

@AuntGlow

Wrote this last night... it helped

Ah, this made me feel a lot.. @avant-garde. You've captured something so real and raw here.

Thank you for sharing, it's beautiful. 💛

@AuntGlow

Real and raw is how my poetry often comes out