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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@PeppyPatti

Sorry misread the post... Sorry... I guess I'm still on edge

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How are you feeling after this exercise @avant-garde ?

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@tyme

The exercise helped, the *just now* trigger certainly hasn't!

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Is there another you want to try @avant-garde ?

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@tyme

Counting backwards from 100 in 3's

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Amazing! You can also do it from 200!

It's good to see you choose 3, because that's a hard one. It makes you really have to focus. @avant-garde

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@tyme

I have an app called "calm harm"

It's really helped

I've never done it from 200 but yes that's a thought, a new challenge

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hey @avant-garde how are you?

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@rav3n

I hit a milestone with my book illustrations

I finally finished all the preliminary sketches

The story has been written for years, I wrote it during COVID

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Calm harm wasn't an app I ever got into. It just didn't work so well for me, but I'm mindful about how popular it is @avant-garde . I hope it's effective for you.

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