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avant-gardeSenior Contributor25 Nov 2024, 10:10 pm AEDT

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"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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avant-gardeSenior Contributor27 May 2025, 8:43 pm AEST

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@AuntGlow you're making assumptions, assumptions frustrate me when they're wrong.

You're initial question was what would I do if I had 24 hours and basically a TARDIS.

I'd never been to her house without my parents
We were not close at all until after she got cancer
Our close relationship could only develop in the absence of my family
That didn't happen until I stopped seeing her as the enemy which I did for 10 years and gave her a chance

And the assumption hurts because it's something I would've loved to have happened and never will

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AuntGlowModerator27 May 2025, 8:56 pm AEST

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@avant-garde I appreciate you providing me with more context, and I am extremely sorry for upsetting you. That wasn't my intention at all. I really wish that you had this experience with her as well - I can see where I read this wrong too. That's 100% on me.

I can't imagine how challenging this family dynamic was for you, and how painful losing your grandmother must have been. I can see that a closer relationship with her before she was sick would have meant the world to you. 💛

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ArraDreamingSenior Contributor27 May 2025, 8:59 pm AEST

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What the flip

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ArraDreamingSenior Contributor27 May 2025, 9:00 pm AEST

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Wild you know everyone’s schedules man that’s crazy as ahha

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avant-gardeSenior Contributor27 May 2025, 9:01 pm AEST

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@ArraDreaming

Flip what? Pancakes? I like pancakes

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avant-gardeSenior Contributor27 May 2025, 9:04 pm AEST

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@ArraDreaming

No it's not crazy, it's "special", you know what I'm talking 'bout, we all belong in that camp!

I could set the marshmallows on fire! I wonder if I can toast marshmallows with a lighter... no the pyro is going away now... we'll get the metal bucket first...

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ArraDreamingSenior Contributor27 May 2025, 9:12 pm AEST