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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@ArraDreaming what? Who? Me? Nah!

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@avant-garde aw, thank you - I appreciate you making the effort. I would like to get to know you more too!

Hmmm... if you had 24 hours, could click your fingers and be anywhere, with anyone, doing anything... what would you be doing and why?

(You don't have to answer this right now, but it's a fun exercise to get to know people and connect to what matters to them 💛)

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@AuntGlow

I would be sitting with my grandmother in her old house with the rose bushes out the front reading poetry together and getting to know my best friend before her cancer.

How about you

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@rav3n

You're not normally on now... are you filling in for Ru-bee?

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hey @avant-garde not filling in, Ru-bee's on too. i've just had a change with my schedule so i'll be around some mornings, most afternoons and a few evenings.

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@rav3n

Ok good, I like that you're around.

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@avant-garde wrote:

@AuntGlow

I would be sitting with my grandmother in her old house with the rose bushes out the front reading poetry together and getting to know my best friend before her cancer.

How about you


@AuntGlow?

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Apologies for missing this @avant-garde and thank you for reminding me. ☺️

This response is absolutely beautiful. It shows me how much you value connection and the ability to experience life deeply. 💕

Are your grandmother and best friend still with us?

I think for me, I would gather everyone I know and love, somewhere in nature - with music and good food, cozy blankets and shelter - and provide a safe space for everyone to connect. (In fact, I kind of want to do this for my birthday in July. 🥰)

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@AuntGlow

My grandmother was my best friend up until she died 10 years ago.

When's your birthday?

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Oh, wow @avant-garde. That hits even harder. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. Is this your fondest memory of her, or is there another you would like to share? 💗

My birthday is the 11th of July.

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