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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

Both

Idiot drivers not seeing me, me beeping then him tailgating me just now.

I got a decent clearance haul today, including a half price roast dinner

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@Jynx

Did you intend on replying?

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Pretty much always @avant-garde it just takes me a while at times!! Especially when there's lots going on behind the scenes 😅

Even if I don't reply one night, I will come back to it next time I'm on!!

Ugh hate being beeped, always sets my nervous system into overdrive and then it's like 'oh cool make it less safe for me to drive just cos you are impatient!!'

Oooh yummo!! Been yonks since I've had a roast. Was it good?

Hugs before I skedaddle!!

🫂🫂🫂

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@Jynx

He was pulling onto the road from the curb, I beeped at him because I had right of way.

I had clearance salads for dinner, the roast meal is likely Thursday night

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@Ru-bee

Dentist in 20 minutes

2 fillings

2 needles

1 hour

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Is this with the same gentle dentist as last time @avant-garde?

Deep breaths. What do you have planned when you're all done?

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@Ru-bee

Yeah and hopefully the same assistant.

I have doctors straight after (they're in the same building, it's just the other end of the reception desk), chiro, then op shops, them Bible study then home.

tiny care bear

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Oh good @avant-garde I'll keep my fingers crossed that it's the same assistant too!

Sounds like you've got a productive day planned! Just one hour to get through and then you can get on with the rest of your day, you've got this!

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@Ru-bee

all done, didn't cost as much, not same assistant, she's unwell at the moment.

I'll be glad when my bottom lip isn't numb

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You did it @avant-garde!!

Yes its such an uncomfortable feeling isn't it?? I'm always too scared to eat or drink too incase I bite myself or dribble. Ah well, the hardest part of the day is done! What are you looking forward to most in your plans for the rest of the day?

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