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Okay @avant-garde, I take that you are home? ☺️

@AuntGlow

Yeah

@AuntGlow

There was so much yesterday... so much pain and hurt and inconceivable psychosomatic responses that had me tense and feeling the physical pain within the flashback, pain that still lingers even now.

I hear you @avant-garde. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you must be feeling and the immense overwhelm your body has had to go through from managing the trauma you have experienced. You deserved to feel safe and protected, and I am so sorry that you weren't. But I want to reassure you that you are safe with us. I get the sense you are probably needing nurturing in this moment - what can I do that would help from afar? And if you're not sure, what might help you to feel 1% safer in your body right now?

@AuntGlow

Normally I'm just shaking and feeling this all on my own, that my pain isn't falling on empty ears is more than I'm used to

@avant-garde Well, I am really glad I can keep you company and sit with you in these feelings. 🥰 Are you creating a comfortable space to hold yourself in how you're feeling too? I am imagining blankets, candles, some chocolate, maybe some music?

@AuntGlow

That sounds more romantic than comfort which is mildly triggering for me.

I have my teddy bear, comfy pj's and my favourite hot cross buns

@avant-garde Thank you for letting me know this, I shall remember for next time. It's interesting how certain things resonate more than others, depending on the person. I think a teddy bear, pj's, and hot cross buns sound so cozy and nourishing.

Most importantly, it sounds like a safe space for this more vulnerable part of you to be held or expressed. We are here with you, okay? 💛

@AuntGlow

What my dad did was wrong wasn't it? I have value... regardless of my gender...

Without a shadow of a doubt, what he did was wrong.

You have inherent worth exactly as you are... we find you incredibly valuable @avant-garde. Thank you so much for being here. 🩷