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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@rav3n

She would've loved it and encouraged me every step, she certainly encouraged my poetry.

She was very against my being vocal about my abuse though, that it wasn't honouring to my parents like the Bible says to be

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@avant-garde oh i'm so sorry to hear that. sounds like a conflicting relationship, having so much love for them but also being told to stay silent by them. you deserved to be supported in both your art and truth. 💙

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@rav3n

When my grandmother passed I went no contact very quickly and started speaking out again

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@avant-garde that must've been tough, and i'm really glad you did speak up. 💙

i gotta hop off now, i'll catch ya next time - take care!!

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*throws a pillow at @Jynx*

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@avant-garde Oh my stars, it's RAINING PILLOWS!!

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@Jynx

*sets up an automatic pillow trebuchet*

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Ahaha love it @avant-garde you will win ALL THE PILLOW FIGHTS!! ALL THE PILLOW GLORY!!

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How are you @Jynx?

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@Jynx

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