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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde how do you tend to acknowledge the occasion? Just quietly?

Maaad kudos, what a milestone!

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@Jynx

You said to mention it if I want the community to help me celebrate it...

I'm feeling really weak and shaky

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What would you want that to look like @avant-garde ?

Aww hun, hope you're okay! Checked in with your basics and taking some steady breaths yeah? 💜

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@Jynx

I don't know what it would look like... I assumed you had ideas since you originally mentioned it...

I think the last couple of days have been really overwhelming and hard and it's my body telling me I need to have a good cry and just let the nervous tension out

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Mmm maybe @avant-garde I honestly don't remember mentioning it but we can come back to it next time?

I hope you get the cry your body needs. Mine will probably join you honestly, been needing a good weep myself!!

Til next time 😊💜

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@Jynx wrote:

Mmm maybe @avant-garde I honestly don't remember mentioning it but we can come back to it next time?


25th March - check in email

"OMG 7 years, congrats!! Remind us in two months and we can celebrate with you if you like!!"

@Jynx

😛

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@rav3n!

Hello 😊

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@avant-garde hey! how are you going? 😊

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@rav3n

I feel like me for the first time in months.

I had my first open art house today and yes I may feel like I don't even compare to the artists there but I felt whole just being there

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@avant-garde this makes me so happy to hear!!! did you get to chat about your art with others? were you drawn to any of the other artworks too?

i'm sure your artwork was amazing, everyone has their own styles and unique ways of storytelling through art - doesn't make one less meaningful than the other 😊

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