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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@tyme

I'm alert and want ice cream

Also want to do some less than legal things to Delilah but won't act on those.

Also want to make some people live a day in my shoes and see just how easy it is

So yes I think that's anger predominantly

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Thank you for sharing. It helps me understand what's going on for you a lot more. I'll be honest, I don't know what it's like to experience a seizure, nor do I know what it's like to bei n your shoes.

Thank you for being patient with me.

Did you get a happy meal today? @avant-garde

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@tyme

Sadly no, needed to actually rest and had rice paper rolls left over from yesterday that needed eating

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Did you make the rice paper rolls @avant-garde ? I love them.

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@tyme

No I got them on clearance yesterday for $5

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*pokes @Jynx*

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@avant-garde *giggles* uh oh are we playing tag?

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@Jynx

*smiles weakly and starts crying*

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No tag then @avant-garde that's okay. Hard day?

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@Jynx

Hard yesterday

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