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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde yep, pretty great although i could use some ear plugs 🎸

oo love last episodes!! has this season been good? did the show get renewed for another season?

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@rav3n

Latest episode, not last episode

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ohh oops didn't realise the whole season wasn't out yet! @avant-garde

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@rav3n

One episode a week, think today's was episode 3

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ahhh yep makes sense @avant-garde how'd the shopping go, get everything you need?

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@rav3n

I picked up enough bargains to stock my small bar fridge for a couple days

Also a couple of clearance soup cups to restock the pantry with emergency meals

Can I talk to you about tomorrow?

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@avant-garde ayy nice!! foods more satisfying when you get it on sale 😋

yes ofc! what's happening tomorrow?

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@rav3n

I have chiro again tomorrow...

After the seizure last week...

The one they didn't notice...

I need to talk to the chiro student supervisor...

I need to ask that it be put on my file to not get a male student...

I'm scared...

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i'm so sorry that no one noticed the seizure!! @avant-garde i'm not too familiar with what triggers seizures, but from what you've mentioned, are these triggered due to male contact?

totally fair to be scared, it's sounds overwhelming to go through on your own. hugs to you 💙
would calling in early tomorrow and requesting a female chiro be possible? or do you have to go with the same chiro again?

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@rav3n @tyme (this might help)

They're final year students that come to a local community centre, early isn't an option, I'm normally there before they get there anyway.

You just get who you get...

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