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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Hello @avant-garde my friend 💜

Going over these things with someone new is always so difficult. Sending you a big, big hug. Proud of you for getting through it

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@Ru-bee

At least he justified what I had been thinking already, that my last one wasn't professional at all and did the wrong thing leaving me in the lurch like she did

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I'm glad you were able to get that validation @avant-garde and I completely agree with him on that point.

What are you doing this afternoon? I hope you have some comforting things planned?

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@Ru-bee

Watching doctor who with my best friend, probably losing at go fish, having a go at the claw machine, getting clearance goodies, then also petrol.

I currently have coffee

Oh and @Jynx will have to fit in there somewhere too

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Ohh sounds like such a nice afternoon with the bestie @avant-garde!

I think I might have to make myself a coffee too...it's such a grey day here I need a warm drink so I can feel cosy rather than gloomy!

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@rav3n

Hi

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hiii @avant-garde how are you going? 😊

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@rav3n

I won phase 10 with my best friend, watched doctor who and now getting things from the shops

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another card game i've never heard of, i think i've been living under a rock 😅 @avant-garde

oo nice, doctor who's on my to-watch list too, are you on the latest season?

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@rav3n it must be a pretty great rock concert then

Yes the latest season and latest episode

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