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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Hey @avant-garde , I'm definitely well placed to talk about the groups at SANE!

There is no expectation for participants to have their cameras or even their microphones in when they come to groups. Some participants just use the chat function. Some even use them almost as a live podcast or webinar (and don't actually say anything).

The groups are a mix of peer support, psychoeducation and general discussion. They aren't therapy groups.

Re. the 15 week program (which involves 1-1 sessions with either a counsellor or peer work PLUS groups), the schedule for attending the sessions is pretty fixed. We have counsellors and peer workers that work until 8pm AEST each day.

SANE also has another program called RecoveryClub, which is just groups, but is more self-paced and goes for 6 months. RecoveryClub doesn't involve 1-1's.

Groups are scheduled at 1pm, 4pm and 6:30pm AEST every weekday.

Give me a shout if you have other questions 😊

Thanks @Jynx ❤️

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@avant-garde ohhhh for real? Wonder if that's messing with your system much?

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Aww thanks @0ddsidian you're a champ!! Saving this info for later hehehe

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@0ddsidian that might actually work for me... thank you!

@Jynx the last time I didn't have it... It could've ended very badly

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@avant-garde you got immune system troubles? Doesn't surprise, but that is rough. Glad you're all shielded now tho!!

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@Jynx

My immune system is decent, I've had asthma for 30 years...

My last bad 'flu' I had 4 doctors tell me it's just the flu, I'll get over it... it wasn't the flu... it was a bronchial chest infection with too much mucus to allow me to breathe... it almost killed me...

For me it's to decrease the severity if I were to get it

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Love the ol' medical gaslighting hey @avant-garde ugh that would have been so scary!! Glad you're okay and all prepped for the flu season.

Do you get side effects?

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@Jynx

Straight after my arm goes cold

A few hours later I get a wave of dizziness

Then I just get tired

That's about it

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Riding that tired train now are ya @avant-garde ? What's your evening looking like hun?

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@Jynx

not ok, not ok

the trigger aspect of the seizure is coming back to haunt me...

I had a male chiro student today... that's what did it...

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