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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

I need some help grounding

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Here with ya hun @avant-garde are you home at the moment? What would help you reconnect to the present, you reckon?

Singing is always a good one....

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Not home, Wednesday routine

Coffee will help

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Backwards from 100 in 3's

@Jynx

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Yay coffee!! @avant-garde I've been having decadent coffees lately... with vanilla essence and thickened cream 😍

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@Jynx

I can't have vanilla

I like white chocolate mochas

Not many places do them though

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@avant-garde I've never had one!! Sounds tasty tho

Teehee look what I found this arvo!! Suger Glider snack time!!

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@Jynx that's really cute

How is the counting going?

I wonder if you could upload the pictures to AI and ask it to count the eggs

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@avant-garde alas, brain is in molasses today so counting hasn't yet begun 😅

That's not a bad idea! Hmm might be tricky to find the right one tho ahaha

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@Jynx I got my flu shot today

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