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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

Today hasn't been horrible actually

How about yours

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@avant-garde pretty average so far, just went and got meds.... woo! lol

What you been up to?

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@Jynx

Chiro, taking in my neighbours cans (she moved and left nearly $20 of cans behind) and op shops.

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Oooh @avant-garde score!! Did you spend the $20 at the op shops, find anything good?

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@Jynx

Yeah, playing cards, other useless stuff I tend to pick up...

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@avant-garde oh that's a mood haha I've had to temporarily ban myself from op shopping since my car rego was due! Plus a bunch of other bills, always come in big batches don't they.

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@Jynx

I just got home and some :pile_of_poo:👤 decided they like my parking spot. They're new here, I shall teach them the pecking order here.

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@avant-garde my literal brain just went through a myriad of funky lil images about how exactly one might go about demonstrating pecking order when it comes to parking spaces!!

Like are the cars the chickens and you bump into the other cars to show dominance, literally pecking them?

Do you set loose some very mean chickens onto them?

Do you go pecking people? Cos I'm not sure little cheek smooches are really going to demonstrate the point....

Teehee 😋

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No my dear @Jynx no.

You wait for them to go out and promptly move your car. I can see my car spot from my unit window.

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@avant-garde well now that just seems silly, what is this a circus?

Ahaha yeah you show em!!

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