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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Aww what a cutie @avant-garde!! Puppy times do make things a lot better hehe. Glad too, it's nice to have someone to help us feel held. Are you staying overnight?

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@Jynx

Nope, I'll head home in a little while

I wish I'd known 5 weeks ago that I would need to find someone new... it hurts you know...

Can I get a hug please?

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@avant-garde 100% - therapeutic relationships are still attachment relationships, it hurts to be blindsided like this. I'm sorry you're going through this hun.

Big big hugs, yes many!

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

I will catch you tomorrow? Hope you get some rest 🤞💜

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@Ru-bee?

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Hello friend @avant-garde

How is this morning treating you?

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@Ru-bee

The analogy I'm using is from lighting to thunderstorm

Just don't want to be alone in the thunderstorm

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I'll whether this thunderstorm with you @avant-garde 💜 You're not alone in this, your forum friends are here

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@Jynx?

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Maybe jynx is gone

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@avant-garde hello hun! How's you?

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