New puppy new life new Thread.

Please excuse my ignorance. Are you okay @Gillie1 ?

Nothing I can explain. Someone who said I was safe one week turned around and showed I wasn't the next and I don't know why. Nothing unusual here.

Good morning my friend @Gillie1 🫂💛

I do hope you're in a better place today... obviously I don't know what's occurred there with you yesterday. So I am holding you tight in my thoughts with peace and warmth.

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I'm in a mood and Cookie can sense that and is being rather destructive on anything that she can find to tear up.

So we'll go for a walk around the block and visit a friend. Shift our focus. She kept me out of hospital last night. I owe her a good day today.

Cookie has been for a walk and visit. She is all dried off after the rain and has fallen asleep on my lap wrapped up in a towel. All is right in the world for her.

I'm trying to live my story not repeat other's, but I can't do it alone.

People think that stories are shaped by people. In fact, it's the other way around.

Pratchett.

Hi @Gillie1

Hope you had an OK weekend, and a better week ahead 🙏💛

"Love conquers all things except poverty and toothache.”

What have I always believed?
That on the whole, and by and large, if a man lived properly, not according to what any priests said, but according to what seemed decent and honest inside, then it would, at the end, more or less, turn out all right.

 

My mobilitt scooter has been put on hold due to storage issues. I'm really disappointed it feels like progress has stalled again.

I desperately need more independence especially after last week. I feel like everything is a test all the time and if I don't pass I'll be rejected and won't get help. But I need so much more help till I get my scooter. It goes round and round in circles. I'm scared around everyone especially my support workers again.

I can't show them how scared of rejection I am but can't be myself either because I'm scared of being misinterpreted.

So I can't relax, they can't move on and I need them to get by but I feel worse around them at the same time.

I need my Scooter. I need to get control of my life and story back and I need to know people have moved on so I can be myself. And get on with my life. Then I might start trusting my supports again.

I'm feeling angry and frustrated with the world this arvo. Everything seems like a test and everything around me feels contrived and I don't know how to change that.

Just give me my bloody scooter that's already funded and let me be.

Cookie had fun in the mud this arvo.