Trying makes it worse

Sorry i cant read this this site too frustrating on phone cant fund threads etc its crap @maddison yes good runners that fit will help Thanks

I'm sorry @maddison rude of me, nothing to do with you. um yes, I got away with walking in thongs for years, but heel thing on and off last 5 months maybe , stretchiing arch can help, should just wear runners . thanks for your advice, going to bed here

Hi @TAB was at kmart today and thought of u

Hope u find a top u like there, I bought some dishes and a cable that ended up nor what I needed for my device...

I liked all of Ur suggestions @maddison

It is very hard not being able to be mobile, I appreciated all that info as well, thank u.

I'm not very good at kmart, grt too stressed and confused. Think I have marie kondo in my head saying "storage experts are hoarders" or something like that...the idea being that buying more storage doesn't really help deal with clutter.

Well done on Ur walk today @TAB

I walked today through a whole rack at kmart of men's shoes,

They has thongs which were "pink floyd" themed.

I thought it was quite odd.

I am feeling a bit down today, have been trying to survive, my friend is going away to Bali tomorrow for 2 weeks.

Kmart b4 i moved was structured even if was rarely if ever fully stocked. If something sold out . Thats it never ordering it again.
one here is confusing. Things close to wat I want but not close enough. Yeah broken lines, reduced range etc.

maybe look after You while friend is away @EternalFlower

just saying. It can work. You be friend and 'you' just ask what you need and work it out 😅

Another amazing piece @maddison 🤩

That is a great analogy about unloved aspects of ourselves coming out as monsters. I suppose that as so many interpretations, they come from our experiences and sense of self. I was so scared the first few that I drew, and now I think I will be looking at them through a new lens. I will be trying to see what led me to create each one.

And yes, sharing aspects of ourselves can be really difficult. It can make us feel very vulnerable. However, I feel that if you can share aspects of yourself in a safe environment, it can be very rewarding.

I will get my book down from the cupboard in a few shakes and send some through @maddison

How was your forest music @Appleblossom??

Yes @Appleblossom I also was under the impression that all doctors are trauma informed. This is a bit frightening to find out. Did he give you any advice on where to go for this?

How was your day besides that strange encounter?

Hey @EternalFlower

Thankyou for explaining how you can experience feelings of isolation with your friend. It's really lots of compromise & learning from both sides. I can see that my hm struggles with negative emotions in a way that I cannot begin to imagine. (That's not to say that I don't have my own profound struggles - very similar & also different)

I have some awareness that if I'm disappointed in his actions - for whatever reason - it seems to really affect him deeply. It's different from the usual response one would expect in everyday life. It's almost as if it's too much to carry.

It has taken me many years to accept & understand this reality. I can be angry & upset with something he's done - it's human nature. But I work really hard, to never let negative times linger. For instance, I might get angry at him for not helping around the house, & then in the next sentence, suggest we do chores together, or change subject completely.

I'm trying to say that I've needed to learn how to communicate without holding grudges, or proving who is right

When you mention how it reminds you of interactions with your friend, I know that your friend wouldnt want you to feel bad about that. It happens! The idea that you have insight, despite your experience being excruciatingly solitary is, in my view, enough. (& More than lots)

If I had read this post when I was younger, I wouldn't have believed it. I wouldn't believe that one person's pain (deficits?/struggles) could be more significant than any others. On one level, that is still probably true, however, I can see in my friend that common, everyday judgement or disapproval, to him, can feel unbearable. I can't fully understand it. I do believe it.

In lots of ways he has taught me a level of compassion & patience that otherwise was non existent, or dormant in me.

We all speak the same language, yet the words can have vastly different meanings to each of us. I have needed to learn his language, & it has been inconceivably hard. For a split second, I can imagine that for him to learn mine, is harder.

This gives me clues that many people who experience mental health diagnosis are highly intelligent. Despite how we are stigmatized or made to feel that we have less to offer (we are not in ahs asylum times! but perceptions can still be archaic)

Have you seen the movie Split? I really like m. Night Shyamalan. His movies are fun thriller, with elements of truth & depth.

I am broken, damaged, scarred - split. I'm almost certain I see things other people don't. xx

Oops that last sentence came across a bit arrogant. I will ponder.

Excellent work on steps @TAB well done.

Looking forward to your drawing @Former-Member thankyou for encouraging me. I was surprised & pleased to read that you felt fearful drawing at first. Thankyou for sharing.