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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Re: Trying makes it worse

Hi @Sophia1 thank u for getting me and listening to me. I cant tell u how much it helped.

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Hi @rav3n thanks for that super helpful advice on the amazing sane complaints policy- super helpful to keep us all safe. Thanks for writing. Are u doing ok? Hope u have a lovely weekend.

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Re: Trying makes it worse

hi @Appleblossom @Sophia1 (no pressure to reply) @TAB I thikn sometimes I have been too open here, I didn't understand fully that I could choose who I replied to. I am trying to work on internal protections.
I fawn a lot and sometimes engage with people out of fear that they wonn't like it if i don't respond or they'll expect something

I feel there are a few people here who i am comfortable with and who remember annd note things about me and also share about themselves in mutual journeys that inspire me to recover and continue on.


I can't speak to the safety of every user here or every person nhere and its okay to not write to people wo stress you out, I guess.

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Re: Trying makes it worse

I will bravely say I think that I understand the need to be listened to and actually heard.

Two different concepts...sadly lost with many people.

I have also learnt that just because a person has lived experience does not mean that they actually hear what you are saying

A difficult task to reach out to many and remember each person's needs

Hence I keep myself close to a few threads and a few people

You do have your safe space here and you do not have to reply to everyone. This you already know. Sometimes all of us need reminding.

We are only human are we not Eternal

May the spaces in this life keep you comforted, reassured and held

You are a lovely soul Eternal

I sense people's energy even on forums

Sophia

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Re: Trying makes it worse

Thanks @Sophia1 it is difficult for me to accept care and I can barely trust anyone these days but I sense u are speaking from a protective sense for me. Im so tired to people taking from me and using me. Thank u for tuning it and being respectful to what im struggling with. I am learning to ignore and step away when I feel people are pressuring me

Sometimes people take the fact that indont speak up or say an explicit no as a yes. I fawn and my yes isnt always from my soul. Its hard for me to say no.

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