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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Hi I love these, I'd go for the dove grey though, but work my way to the bolder colours!
The medical world isn't what I hoped. It seems ppl need more community than drs, imo. Spaces to be together.

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Hi @TAB I think watching TV is my main hobby and it's sad that man was given a hard time because of it. I used to read but can't focus as well, not even movie much these days, so watching TV shows is a good hobby for me.

I have a phone call re my DSP application in a few weeks. I wander if that means I'm moving to the next step.

I hope u are well. How is Ur new space?

I apologise I posted last night this message but used a word for watching TV that is triggering for some, so it didn't post. I changed the word and now it has posted.

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Hi @EternalFlower Ive been a bit ordinary last week or so

not exercising, not getting things done etc

anyway was looking at another day like that today, slept in (why not?) raining endlessly.
thought stuff it and went and did a few things .
I'll get there..

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My older sister is poison.

@EternalFlower xx

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Hi @maddison That's painful and hard, I hope u feel safe from her.

The thing with poisonous family members is they worm their way in.

Hope u had an okay week. How are u...I'm around this weekend if u want to chat

Have u got a new neighbour?

My nails have been really neglected lately, I think I need a new colour or something. During the pandemic I never had bare nails. Nailpolish addiction. People did weird things to cope during the lockdowns, and I spent 100s of dollars on polish!!

Hi @TAB did u get some walks in this week?

I met my new cm and he's pretty nice.

One major difference is I feel safe to talk alone with him. I used to keep the door open with previous cm, not that anyone would come and save me!

@Appleblossom how are u doing? I'm feeling OK tonight which is weird. I had a bad session with my therapist Dr last week and wanted to quit, but we "made up" this week. I feel like I've detached a bit from clinicians overall and want to feel like a person again, not just a consumer or sick person.

I hope u and family are OK?

He told me has worked in private hospitals and said a lot of mums would go during school holidays for a break. That therr are certain times of year ppl tend to need help.

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Hi @ef @EternalFlower um big semi impromptu walk yest then shorter ad hoc wateva one did short bike ride today ok but longer than Ive done in decades lol

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Hi @TAB sounds good, no more rain, I hope?

I'm feeling a bit anxious tonight, didn't have dinner really, skipping meals.

I am decluttering my home and have been giving away stuff.

I still have tonnes to go through.

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@EternalFlower Hope you're Okay ✅

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Thanks so much 🙏
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