Trying makes it worse

Saw dr @Appleblossom @maddison

Still reeling

Dude took million notes told me he was really busy today but we can discuss more on Friday. Told him how he'd talked over me and also I said I doubt we'll talk about sh on Friday, we didn't today, and he's always putting it off, and I widhed he'd be honest with me. I tried to leave session several times.

He said stay, then left on his terms abruptly , triggering me again .

FFS.

I'm here with you @EternalFlower

@maddison, sorry for the the late reply re: your housemate appointment. I just logged bcak in.

That is a tricky one! Your hands are kinda tied with consent, differing moods and awareness. Eeeeek 😐. Can you stay with aa friend when you feel unsafe?

How did the weekend appointment go? What is happening this week?

Xx

Sorry @EternalFlower, I had logged off for the night re: your concerns about triggers in your message. Was it sorted for you??

How has this week been for you??

Xx

You ok @EternalFlower ?

Are you thinking about sh after psych head f🤯

You are ok.

Breath.

I'm check-in at 5.45. ok?

Hey @EternalFlower good thoughts or bad thoughts?

I fed my hungry animals. They are happier now.

Time to feed me.

What is dinner 4 U tonight?

Glad you are back @Former-Member 💜

What did you get up to today @maddison?

Xx

I'm going to give you some tools I've been using that I've found helpful ... If you are interested @EternalFlower

Eating dinner.

Hi @maddison I hope ur doing ok at home and finding the space not too heacy or weird without housemate. I hope it's a good change for him in hospital and he gets bit of support ...at least

I felt super distressed post dr and maybe even self blame around choosing this dr. He has a registrar so I am able to speak to him but I get intimidated and don't know process of asking for him. It's not like my dr ever explained their roles or when I can speak to his secondary dr, R.

Snacks are good lol I need to restock

I am ok and safe in my space here.