Life after hospital

Hi @Decadian@Faith-and-Hope

I'm just so tired, i am not feeling very positive tonight. i have noticed that i am in not a good frame of mind. think i will go to bed soon and hide away.

i feel that i need to express my anger but i can't or don't know how apart from self destruction. so maybe bed is good for me right now.

i know i have you guys on here, thank you for being here for me.

@NikNik

I will go to bed and tomorrow night I will come on and chat to you again.

@BlueBay

If I post a recipe for adult play-dough, will you make some for yourself ?

I made some earlier in the year with my D1, and it is quite lovely to have around .... there is something about how wonderful it smells .... And it has texture in it ... and just squeezing it and molding it in your hands, even rolling it into little balls and filling a tea-cup with them is a way of calming down up your nerves ....

If I could, I would make some and bring it over to you, so the next best thing would be if you will do it for yourself ....

I understand @BlueBay

Take it easy tonight - and there is not need to have positive feeling 100% of the time

Go to bed and sleep - we can all chat tomorrow - something to think about then

Night

Decadian

Good night @BlueBay .... 💤💕

Talk to you tomorrow .... 🌷💜

Here is the Calming Lavender Play Dough recipe for anyone who wants to give it a try .... I like to add in rose oil and rose petals .... but that's just me .... and I am sure it would work just as well with peppermint oil and dried oeppermint leaves ....

Ingredients:
* 2 cups of flour
* 4 tablespoons of cream of tartar
* 2 tablespoons of vegetable oil
* 1 cup of salt
* 2 cups of boiling water
* few drops of lavender oil
* few drops of rose oil
* dried lavender petals
* dried rose petals

Method:
* Mix together the flour, cream of tartar and salt in a bowl.
* Add the oil and water and keep stirring until it all comes together.
* Leave it in the bowl to cool and don’t worry if it looks a little gooey at this stage.
* Once cool enough add to a dry surface and knead knead knead! This is the most important part and helps to get rid of all the stickiness.
* Store in a airtight container or ziplock bag and it lasts for months. Keep somewhere cool, ours is usually in the fridge

@NikNik

I didn't work much on my anger. I did try art therapy but walked out twice because i was too emotional. Feeling the fear of being judged because i couldn't do what others could do; i felt like a hopeless child not even able to draw a simple picture.

I am having a session with my regular therapist tomorrow morning and i will bring it up with him. just hope he can help me.

it is hard to work on anger, i think it is a fear of something. I have been starting to hit the panic button with work, far too much to do before xmas. and our store is being audted again in october, which when it was done in may i ended up breaking down and going into hospital because of exhaustion and then change of meds. i was so emotional; i am already worried that if i don't [plan these next few months in advance i will be sick again.

i am delegating but i always take everything to heart; all the responsibility of the store i think and worry about because it is a reflectiion on me as the one who is in charge of the younger staff. and i do want the store to be perfect for the audit. gosh i am panicking already, need to stop and breathe.

@BlueBay

Channeling anger and fear into a more constructive outlet may be helpful. We all use different strategies to manage fear and anger.

Different strategies work for different people. Talking to your therapist is a great idea. There might be some helpful content online about strategies too. It's all about trying the different strategies and seeing if they work for you.

Here are some resources that could start the ball rolling -

Australian Psychological Association

American Psychological Association

ReachOut Australia

I don't think thinking about work right now is helpful for you. I totally understand how much work can fill up the brain and just swirl around and around causing anxiety and exhaustion. Thinking about work right now isn't going to make things any better - it's a hard switch to turn off though.

I hope you have some strategies to help you rest tonight.