Sounds bad @butterfly101
What to do? What to do?
What do you do on the interent?
I remember a terrible Monday in 2004 - ah bleak! - I had moved here just a few months before and missed being near the beach and it was autumn and I still had to learn this is a cold house - it still is but I have had some improvements done
But a friend came to see me and suggested the Internet - fantastic idea - hey - I already wrote this today but I will write it again
I got a free month on dial-up - and sat and looked at it and said to myself "Now I have the internet - what do I do with it
Okay - it's easier than it used to be - I don't know if there still is dial-up - but still - you can type whatever into your browser and it will bring up something - anything
You know how you are having trouble finding something that interests you atm - it's the same for us - suggesting anything - and many of us - me too - have looked at life through the bleary eyes of having been crying a lot - not a bad idea to cry - not pleasant but it can't hurt - and not found a thing that is positive
I don't know where you are and why you are missing your family and your kids - so it's hard to know what to suggest - but one thing I do know
At the bottom of the hole we fall in is the obvious - it's the pits - it's the bottom - it's as low as you can go and who has been there - hands up
Yip - I'm holding my hand up - when you hit rock bottom there is only one way to go and that's up
I am so sorry life is so bleak - and that suggestions are falling on dry ground - or maybe falling on a pile of wet, soggy tissues - yes - I do know
Push your feet onto the bottom and you will come up - promise
In the meantime - do what you can - as bothersome and boring as it is - if you can walk - take a walk - you can read - read something - boring - yes - if I am reading something boring I often fall asleep -
Whatever it is - it is totally impossible for it to last forever -
Sheesh - this is the longest post I have written on this subject ever I am sure
But I wish you would feel better asap - I really do - I hate the thought of someone belng alone and so unhappy - that is a beastly way to live your life
Decadian [sending hugs]
