Moving forward

Gosh @Appleblossom, you sound like me sometimes. 3years is a while to overlook a plan haha Do it often here. Do you have a bit of DID? Sometimes I wonder if I do. I discover whole systems I've started & forgotten. Like Christmas finding them sometimes, the memory of it returns (and the frustration of 'this is where I put it'), but the memory is a fog, like a past life. All very weird. my GP says its the C-PTSD. Just do the best you can.
BTW, I have Desiderata on my wall too. Love the song, do you 🙂

so true

what u do when feeling lonely

@butterfly101,
Sorry you feel lonely, I feel the pain of it a lot too. I think loneliness is just as debilitating as MI can be. These forums help take my mind off the emptiness of it all, reading everyone's stories & engaging some beautiful souls.

@Appleblossom 's idea of public transport is good. Also, I find sometimes just ducking u the corner shop & exchanging the weather can make a big difference. The first time I realised thid i cried with relief afterward. Also it made me appreciate there was a place for pleasant shallow conversation, that I didn't have to share anything about myself to feel better, andcthat i still had the xapacity to make someone else smile.

Another thing that helps sometimes is walking around the block & talking to anyone that's receptive. Talking about the weather is a good icebreaker. There's this little old lady a few houses up often in her garden who's always good for a chat. Sometimes, if i tend to my front garden at the right times, people walkinf by me often say something, its nice.

But those days I feel agrophobic or too fragile to risk people - I ring lifeline for 10min, pray, Journal - Rounding off my day in a journal before bed helps. Journalling is good when your mouth just can't find the words, or the breath.

ABC radio TalkBack shows are helpful. Common interest groups are good, i really have to push myself sometimes but for me there's craft, church, bible study & i hope to join a community choir again, maybe.

Wanna hear something funny, I just realised that my telemarketer phone calls & unknown numbers more than triple callers I know (since being sucked into a scam online last month) My phone has a soft ringtone now & usually ignore it, unfortunately. Genuines will leave a message. This is funny because the daily telemarketers are helping me not worry if my phone is broken & made me realise its OK to draw boundaries lol

I do understand loneliness.

Are there any times you were glad you reached out?

thank u

no i wanna cry pain empty in chest and tummy i miss kids and family and yea