Moving forward

I just realised that it was the 5 year anniversary of my life changing yesterday and I missed it which is pretty cool. 🤗😊

Hi @Former-Member

What have you been up to today?

I went for a swim today, I think the first one since May.

@Former-Member I mostly stayed at home and did a few house chores. Pottered in the garden a bit with the emphasis on pottered. Not much but enough.

Congrats on the swim @Former-Member🎉👍👏

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope💜😊 Did your day get better?

I've just read but through the post discussion- congratulations on doing so well @Former-Member

This weekend I have to get in and do some chores around the house. I am so dreading doing them though but I know once I start I will be fine. I did make a slight start tonight.

I think a lot of what you described sounds like depression but I am no expert, and I think as time goes on you will start to enjoy things again, your symptoms will become less and you will notice small changes, for me I tried to grab hold of them, and to make those moments last longer, and more frequent. But I think some of it was anxiety for me too. I remember when my depression and anxiety was at my worse I couldn't walk around the block.

Tomorrow is a huge day for me and anniversary for me and starting to feel quite a bit of sadness. I just feel so alone in this still. I think first thing in the morning I will be heading to the beach.

Yes I guess much of it is depression but BPD and DPD stuff thrown in with a serving of anxiety @Former-Member. I'm so sorry to hear tomorrow is a struggle day for you but I'm glad you have plans to get to the beach. It seems like you are moving forward to each week lately, I hope that is how you feel. I'm guessing kira is in for some extra cuddles as well. Make sure you plan something nice for you I case it gets difficult. I have a busy weekend but should be around a bit if you need. Sending hugs for tomorrow 💜😊💐

Sorry don't mean to be nosey @Former-Member. I think last nite I read a post discussion not sure what thread but a bit more background, I think what are your triggers, and a bit more about your story. A lot of what you wrote really resonated with me and my own story. And thats no bullshit either. Thank you for sharing your story.

Btw thanks for your kind message and support- I really appreciate it. I will be trying to keep myself somewhat busy tomorrow but will be doing something nice for myself. I truly hope you kept building on what have been doing in therapy and continue to grow and move forward in life.

Sending you gift for adventure and growth and also lots of hugs too.

Thanks @Former-Member. That means a lot too. I sometimes feel a bit isolated on here to but then luckily there seems to be something to connect to others. Your not being nosey. It's hard not to want to know what triggers everyone on here as much as you don't want to trip anyone up more than anything. Right now I choose not to disclose the anniversary of yesterday not because it is so painful but it is complex and complicated. I have worked through most of this part last year but now it is more just me that trips myself up.

Just thought I'd share the picture of my free puzzle of the day. Just a bit cute.

Hi @Former-Member .... 🌷

D3 didn't end up going to school at all. There will be music to face over that on Monday cos each day counts if she is serious about graduating .... she could have operated from support services at school today but chose not to .... I am guessing you have been facing the same thing .... :face_with_rolling_eyes:😔 .... they don't come with remote controls .... ❣

So yes, when there was only half an hour of school left, and D3 wasn't dressed, I took myself off for a couple of hours for a coffee and (rare) pedicure .... more because I struggle to see to my own feet these days and they really needed some attention .... really have to start thinking about @Former-Member's self-care day idea .... 🌷💜

At the moment my version is in bits and pieces when I need an escape and would otherwise be sitting in my car somewhere with a view of nature and a crossword magazine .... not that I don't do that sometimes anyway, cos I do .... it's more about head space than anything else .... and with those girlfriends in your house you will be feelin' it too .... I take a break when I need one. I needed one this afternoon 😎☕️

So yeah ... it got better ... 😊💕

So glad you're finding a stride, and how to re-find it when it goes a bit wonky .... 😜😄