My Mosaic

So the feel good dopamine hit your get when you’ve done what you needed to do gives you the push to get more done @Wintersweet ? Did I understand that right?

groceries, as hard as they are and as much as I hate it, I will get that done. It’s kinda a must. Otherwise D will complain about there being no good food! The sunshine, hmmm I don’t know. And the shower, that’s a really hard one. Really unsure how I’ll manage those 2.

Your so welcome, im glad something I said may of made a difference and you got a bit more done. I’ve really enjoyed getting to know you over the last weeks.

how’s your Saturday going? I woke to rain this morning, which was a surprise. Dropped D at her fathers and went to the shops. Picked up my Lego and found a present for my nephews first birthday- gosh it’s hard to find something for that age. I grabbed a really yummy hot chocolate too from a cafe that uses melted belgium chocolate.

@Bow

Thought of you today as I went over to a friend of a friend’s house and they had Lego flowers! I’ve enjoyed getting to know you too!

I think it’s less the dopamine of finishing a task and more the reduction in pressure once it’s not something I “have to do” or “should do”.

Sounds like the groceries have a lot of external motivation with D. Does it help to think about how good you felt after the shower last time, or nah? I’m struggling to put it into words but it inherently kind of makes sense to me why that could be a tricky one. 💛

That hot chocolate sounds amazing! What Lego set did you end up getting for your nephew?

Why do families have to be so complicated. I know it’s just social media, but it just confirms everything. Just found out the sil has removed mum and I from FB. It’s a new low. It’s really hurtful

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Thanks for the support

Hi dear @Bow

Just got back from the snow about 2 hours ago. Have unpacked, got washing on and dinner done.

No broken bones but sore muscles!!!

I'll try and post a pic of the view I had for the weekend.

I got a message on Sat from my psych asking if my appt. Wed could be changed to Mon (tomorrow). I think the sooner I see her the better so of course I said yes.

How are you? How has your weekend gone?

Hey @Snowie welcome home! Missed you. Glad there were no broken bones. You’ve smashed it since being home. And I’d love to see a pic.

thats good your psych can see you tomorrow.

im not ok. Not been a nice couple of days but it doesn’t matter.

@Bow

That would have been super painful to find out when you’re trying to make an effort. Family can be really complicated. I would also have found that response hurtful. It matters to me that things aren’t ok for you right now 💛

@Snowie

Hope you’re able to get that sooner appointment! Looking forward to seeing the picture of the view if it shows up.

Missed you too @Bow

Hoping this makes you smile! I wake up to this.

I'm sorry things are hard hon and the days haven't been kind to you.

It does matter 💗

@Wintersweet nice to hear from you too.

Thanks @Snowie @Wintersweet it just really hurts. I want a relationship with them all. I sent my brother a message last night via messenger- no reply. Mum asked this morning and said he often doesn’t check messenger but will reply to a text. I sat on it for hours. I don’t like conflict but we want to sort this out. Eventually sent a text. Again nothing. Thought it was mostly her. Maybe it’s him too.

I’ve done nothing all day. It’s really affecting me. I have a stupid headache. And I can tell it’s really upsetting mum too.