My Mosaic

Hi Bow,

Thank you for being honest and sharing how difficult things are currently.

I can hear that things feel so heavy and overwhelming. Missing an appointment doesn’t make you a failure, and your struggle is still valid even if your blood results look okay.

It makes sense that you feel exhausted. It’s okay to give yourself permission to take things slow and get some rest.

I am concerned when you expressed how tired of living, you’re feeling — are you safe right now? A gentle reminder to say that, if you feel at risk of immediate danger, please call 000, or crisis services - Lifeline on 13 11 14, or Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467.

We sit here with you as your forums family and encourage you to keep reaching out to peers to get the support you need.

Take care

AltZing-Connect

@Bow

I fully agree with Snowie. It’s ok that the appointment was too much today and I can hear how exhausted you are.

Thanks @Snowie @AltZing-Connect @Wintersweet

yeah im safe at the moment- sorry.

I’ve not really done much at all today. Just sat on the couch. No nap today. I’ve made an appointment to see my gp next week.

lot of sadness and defeat. I wish for things to be easier but I kinda know that that won’t be the case. This beast has such a profoundly tight grip. I desperately want understanding, validation and comfort.

my gp is good. My SW seems good. If I knew my dietitian would have availability soon I would reach out to her but it’s always at least 2 weeks wait.

Good work on making an appt. with your gp @Bow

Perhaps you could make an appt. with your dietitian and ask to be put on a cancellation list. Something might just come up earlier.

@Bow

Well done for making the GP appointment!

I think it’s perfectly natural to wish for things to be easier when they’re so hard. Needing understanding, validation, and comfort when you’re going dealing with hard things is also something I think everyone experiences. And all the more when things are extra hard and/or we haven’t received those things in the past when they were needed. Is it worth reaching out to the Butterfly Foundation again?

I’m glad that your GP and SW are supportive. When do you next see the SW?

Yeah I guess I could try that @Snowie and email my dietitian. I know it’s usually helpful when I talk with her.

i could reach out to the butterfly foundation again, just have to be mindful that they limit you to 2 contacts a week @Wintersweet which is fine. I should be seeing my SW again tomorrow.

I made sure my gp appointment was on a day that my SW is up this way. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about her coming in with me, but at least she will be around if I need her.

how was your days?

Even if your SW doesn't go in with you to see your gp, at least they are around for a catch up maybe afterwards @Bow

My day didn't go to plan, will be in bed early tonight

I’m sorry today hasn’t been ok @Snowie :(( anything you wanna chat about?

Thanks @Bow Just a few things happening out of my control.

Sometimes life just sucks

It does indeed @Snowie sorry that stuff is happening for you.

you doing anything tomorrow? Or the weekend?