My Mosaic

Ah I’m sorry @Snowie that must be really hard. Can you take along something in your pocket that you can fidget with and help ground you?

I’ve just read through paperwork for tonight again and realized they gotta weigh me 😩😩😩😩😩 freaking out. Why????

Yeah I'll have something with me and take prn too @Bow

Hoping all that plus H helps or at least keeps me present.

I'm sorry they have to weigh you hon. I know how much that is a trigger for you.

That’s good you have a couple of things up your sleeve to help get through @Snowie will there be many there?

I will at the minimum ask to not see or know my weight. I have packed a book as they recommend you take something to do cause there are no tvs.

I don't know how many people will be there @Bow thats part of the problem. I would rather more people there and then I don't have to really engage with him but then I'm not comfortable around lots of people.

That might be a good idea hon if you don't know the weight. Hopefully they can just write it down and not tell you. Hopefully with your phone and book, that it will keep you company and make the time go a bit quicker.

Yeah I was wondering that and I’d be the same, easier to hide when there is more people…. But I also think it sticks out to me how alone I feel cause everyone else is with others and talking. But yes too…. I don’t like lots of people @Snowie

I'm hoping my mum doesn't want to stay for long @Bow and we can leave a bit earlier. She gets overwhelmed easily. Whilst I don't want her to suffer, it also makes for a good reason why we might not stay long.

@Bow

I can see why it would be so hurtful to have people respond like that. It would be especially hard when they’re medical people who should know better. I’m glad this psychologist hasn’t responded that way to the surface level stuff you’ve shared. I’m glad that the new SW was able to help you feel safe enough to talk. Wishing you all the best for tonight. Asking to not be told your weight sounds like a good way to take care of yourself in a hard situation. What books are you bringing? (If you don’t mind sharing.)

The iron infusion went ok. I’ve needed them every 3 or so years over the past 10 years or so. Hopefully this time I can prevent needing another by using the tablets ongoingly. Also, the guinea pig passed away yesterday. I’m glad she’s not suffering anymore but sad I couldn’t help her more.

@Snowie

Flashbacks are awful. It makes me really sad that you’re being pressured to be around someone who’s hurt you so much. I fully understand why not going wouldn’t feel like an option. It feels very unfair that you’re expected to go though. Glad you have the prn and H. I’ll join you in hoping that your mum doesn’t want to stay long. 💛

Oh I got my stuff all together and left. Drove 2 mins down the road and realized I was an hour early!! Stupid me 🤦🏼‍♀️

@Bow

It’s easy to do, isn’t it? I got to my psych appointment a whole week early recently. At least for both of us we were early not late and didn’t miss our respective appointments! 😅

@Snowie

Thinking of you and wanted to leave a message so you’ll see it tomorrow morning if you check the forums. Hoping you’re able to work out what will be most helpful for you after such a stressful week. Whether that’s something to do, a safe place to curl up, or something else. 💛