My Mosaic

Dreading what your psych will say about what has recently happened @Snowie ?

oh I’ve heard of brands changing just one thing in a recipe and people being able to tell!

sent my old SW a message but I have a feeling she may not be working tomorrow…. Think she maybe on an rdo. Still have it in my calendar. Time will tell

My old SW is at work today and replied to my text about attending my pdoc appointment tomorrow. It’s at 3pm, she said it was really late. Asked if I could call them up and see if there is anything earlier. I knew there wouldn’t be, but I still called. She put me down for an earlier appointment if anyone cancels throughout today. They finish at 4:30-5

So she said it was fine. And would meet me there. She then let me know that ‘P’ would be calling me to arrange a home visit and do future planning. Who the hell the ‘P’????

so she calls me. Lets me know that my pdoc appointment tomorrow will be fine and that she will work around it. She then let me know that P will be supporting me when my current SW is away and said that she’s been rather u well recently. Apparently my current SW was suppose to if told me? Anyways old SW wanted to come out and do a home visit with P, so they’ve not long left.

this is all just a big bloody mess! So P will be around when my current SW is away, but they kinda talked like she’ll be more my SW than my current one moving forward. But she’s is from the office 1hr south and still has 2 clients down there and will be only up here 3 days a week and then kinda said only half days but she is full time and I can text and call her anytime. And then my old SW will still be around.

this just goes completely against what I need.

when I spoke to my old old SW about the changes to my SW with the new tender starting she said she had in mind the perfect worker for me, someone who works more like her and my old SW and more availability???

im just so freaking frustrated. So at the moment i potentially have 3 SW at the moment… makes me shut down. Put those walls up. Lock people out.

It’s just not the same here anymore. A place I once felt safe and heard is no more. I got no one. No one would even notice my absence. Deep sadness inside. Deep loneliness. Empty void.

Hello lovely! How are you?

I can hear that what happened today was very dysregulating...

what do you think you need most in this moment?

Here for you.

PS: sorry for my delay, I have been a bit sick this week! 💛 @Bow

Hey @Bow

Seems like a sh*t storm to be honest. No one knows what's happening, no one can give you a proper answer. I'm sorry that you have to be on the other end of it hon. It's really not fair for you or your MH.

I know it's not the same but I'd notice you're gone. But I do understand what you are saying about here.

Hey @AuntGlow

i don’t know really…. Feeling a bit lost. Confused. Pulled into too many different directions. All of this is the complete opposite of what I need in support. Got a pdoc appointment tomorrow that I’m so anxious about .

sorry you have been sick, hope nothing too serious and that your on the mend now

Yeah @Snowie i have no idea what is going on. I don’t know if this new one is gonna be my new permanent one when this one that’s always off sick moves to the other office.

im just a big sad lonely blob. Don’t really have any friends. My heads a scary place at the moment

how r u?

I’d miss you @Bow but I know what you mean. I doubt that I’d be missed.

I’d miss you both @Snowie and @Eve7 💗💗