My Mosaic

My head is spiraling and I can’t make the noise stop

Hey @Bow, sounds tough to be experiencing that right now! Is it nearly bed time for you or you staying up for a bit? RiverSeal ❤️

It been relentless lately @RiverSeal but heaps loud and big right now

daughter is still up so I be up for a bit yet unfortunately

I see, that sounds exhausting @Bow! What did you get up to today? The weather is getting warmer hear and I had a nice walk in the sunshine before work. RiverSeal

Dragged my daughter out of the house for a bit this morning to run some errands @RiverSeal did some crafts while watching tv. Our landlord was here for a couple of hours sorting a leak. Had an Indian feast in honor of my step dad who passed 2 yrs ago today. Now just watching tv. I’m tired.

I’ve kept myself busy, but the noise inside my head has not stopped. Which in ways makes me feel worse. There is no break from it. Makes me want to go more.

a walk in the sunshine sounds nice. We finally had sunshine today after a very wet few days.

Sounds like you had a busy day @Bow and no wonder you are tired! I am going for Idian next Thursday which I'm looking forward to 🙂 What did you order?

I can understand that the noise in your head is annoying but remember you have supports you can reach out to when you are experiencing SI. When to you see your support worker next?

RiverSeal

Yeah was a busy day…. We ordered a family feast- chicken tika, veg samosa, korma, butter chicken, naan, papadamms and rice @RiverSeal

@do you like your curry hot?

My supports have really let me down this week. Do really feel like I can reach out to comm mh. Don’t see my SW until Monday. She gave me a gentle yet stern talking to yesterday that she wanted to be able to speak with me Monday morning when she gets in… and I gotta work at my safety plan and not doing stupid things

I love chicken tika @Bow, it's my favourite!! I saw the restaurant has it and I plan to order it too 🙂 yum 🤤

Ok so that's only the day after tomorrow that you will speak with your SW. Do you need to reach out to Lifeline or another crisis support services in the meantime?

I encourage you to read through your Safety Plan and remind yourself of what you can do before you get to the point.

RiverSeal ❤️

Thanks @RiverSeal

I’ve just tucked my daughter into bed and crawled into bed myself. Hopefully sleep won’t take too long.

thanks for the company and I hope you enjoy your Indian feast

Spent so much of today in bed. I had things to do. We have a house inspection coming up. But I just couldn’t. I’m really struggling to maintain my safety and bed was where I needed to be. I feel so very alone. I don’t know where I belong anymore. Existing is too hard.

[edited by moderator] I'm here so I feel less alone.