My Mosaic

Sorry @Snowie im gonna go shouldn’t be here I’m really not ok tc

Hey @Bow, I'm just catching up a bit on your thread.

Good on you for standing up for your needs and stating your expectations to your psych, even though they haven't met them it's good that you were able to let them know that they're not meeting them and that you're feeling that this is not right.

I'm hearing that this is a scary situation with lots of uncertainty like @Snowie said.

I'm catching up on a bit of work today but I'm here for you and will check in here when I'm able 💜

Edit as I just saw your latest message, take care and please reach out to supports as you need. We'll be here when you're ready

Wouldn’t even know who to reach out to now @Ru-bee

feeling so let down

im disappointed

im angry

I am so sorry @Bow I just can’t understand this at all. It’s unprofessional, unkind and uncaring.

I truly hope they put a plan in place very soon. Meanwhile your forum family is here for you. 🩵

I doubt they will. They don’t care and I don’t matter. Not worthy of it

I’ve been feeling so sick all afternoon.

im just over it all

@Bow it's fair enough that you're feeling angry, and I hear you, it would be understandable to start feeling over it.

Are you feeling sick like you've got knots in your stomach because of this, or is there something else going on?

Think mostly my own fault @Ru-bee spent half the night sitting on the bathroom floor [edited by moderator] But all this mess today has made it feel worse.

Hey @Bow ,

I just had to edit out part of your post above so it aligns with guidelines.

I hear how hard it is for you and today's appointment didn't help. I'm sorry this happened.

I'm interested to know why they think hospital would help? I can see you don't think it will help - is this because of your responsibilities at home?

It wouldn’t help @tyme it would only keep me safe. I wrote stuff down. I said stuff. I have things. I told her that. She asked me questions and I said stuff… but only what she wanted to hear and I told her that. Self destructive. Guess what gave her a lot of reasons

So that’s probably why.

Fair enough. I guess it comes to a point where each person is responsible for the actions they take. In my work, over the years, I always want to 'fix' people, but I soon realised that it was a losing battle. Even from my own experiences, hospitals were pretty traumatic. Yes, they had their place in keeping me safe, but it didn't deal with the underlying challenges or the root of the problem. @Bow

I guess that's the hard part in this industry... we have to sit with a level of risk.

So @Bow , where to from here?