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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That was unexpected, my heart is still racing, breathing is hard and I just want to sleep now. Sean didn't realise that we where passing the clients home that assaulted me. Panic attack happened and now I am lost.

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Hey babe. No hasn't been a good night or day.

just popping in to say hi.

hope you are doing ok today gorgeous

love you more than you know

@Former-Member

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Hey @Former-Member, that sounds incredibly triggering, I'm sorry to hear you had a panic attack. You said you just wanted to sleep, I hope you've been able to soothe yourself a bit 🌻

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Thanks for popping in my love. Sending you lots of gentle hugs and wishing that I was actually there to give them to you. @Lee82

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Thanks babe. How have you been today? @Former-Member

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It's been another rough day here too. My sweet. @Lee82

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Anything you want talk about babe? @Former-Member

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I am just not coping very well with all the stuff happening around me. Sean is his ever supportive self but sometimes I think he believes I can just stop all my negative behaviours and that doesn't help in the slightest. We have got me into a place that uses Horses to treat PTSD and anxiety. My intro session is Thursday week they have also found a center willing to take me but it's too expensive for me so we are waiting to see if workcover will pay for it.

that's my crappy stuff anything you want to chat about my love @Lee82

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Pea, I count myself blessed to have meant you and I am so proud to count you as not only one of my friends but as one of my forum family. Thank you for your beautiful words sweet. 💜Izzy

@Bunniekins

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@Former-Membero0o0o0ooo... the sweet pea is Adorable! :D! Thanks Izzy 🙂

Hey @Lee82 I hope both you and @Former-Member have a restful and calm night is soothing, gentle rain here. Bunny is at my feet and son2 is happy so all is good here.

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