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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member Hey DizzyIzzy a Big YES! please keep tagging me. I love your posts and it will be easier for me to find them if you do. Dont forget pea as I wont forget any of you. xxx

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Morning @Bunniekins 💕 and hi also to @Former-Member @Lee82 and others around. 🌸

Yes @Bunniekins ... it takes a while to get used to any new gadget I find. Me not being much of a tech head. 😉 Hope you get the hang of the new keyboard soon. I will be alert to any gibberish, and will have a smile (in understanding) if it comes.

First uni module completed! Wow ... well done. I thought your course wasnt starting until June. Yes I very much understand that your study commitments may keep you away from us a bit from now on. Sad about that, but I know you will still think of us all, and check in when you are able. You will be juggling quite a lot though, so very much understand if your visits are infrequent. My little Pea feels like a part of my family too ... but even in absence ... you still will be. You too have a wonderful day. I very much admire you for doing the uni course, and I hope it provides you with all that you are seeking.

Sherry 💕😊🌺

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well done and congrats @Bunniekins 💐🥳

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@Former-Member Hey Sherry yes it does officially start in June but there was a module you could do earlier and I like to get things over and done with was about uni orientation and plagarism so is all done and dusted. I will miss our daily talks Sherry :(. Will have to be weekly unfortunately .... but want to do well so I have to put my big girl's pants on and do it!:)

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morning also @Lee82 @Former-Member @Former-Member

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@outlander Thanks outlander xxx. Hoping you are doing well today hunny 🙂

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My sweet pea there is no way I am going to forget you💜💜💜💜💜 @Bunniekins

Good morning @outlander @Former-Member @Sans911 @Zoe7 ( I know you are not here right now Zoe, but I just wanted to let you know that I think of you often and hope you are ok my friend) @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @Lee71 @Pollyotter @mudsum @Eve7 amd everyone else passing through this morning.

No wildlife on my walk today Sherry but did find an amazing rose quartz labyrinth walk. It's a mindfulness walk and it is so calming. One of my favourite places to visit is the Crystal Castle in/ just outside of Bryon Bay, we spend hours there surrounded by Crystals and walks just like the one above, at the moment they have a hug amethyst geode cave like thing you can sit in, WOW

I hope you all have a peaceful day an accomplish everything on your to do list.💖Izzy

My sweet Mel, thank you so much for your beautiful picture this morning, after a really bad night it was exactly what I need to see first thing this morning. I love you so much. How did the sleep over go? Are you ok my friend. Chat soon. I love you 3000 ❤️Izzy @Lee82

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Good morning @Former-Member 🌺

I have been waiting for your pics to be cleared, but so far ... I'm still waiting. Will have to check back again later to see them.

Oh Izzy .. I have been to the Crystal Castle near Byron Bay. I love it too. I went there with a set of my grandkids when we visited up that way a couple of years ago. Maybe 4 years now actually .. time flies. My stepson and his wife and 4 kids live not far from there. We spent hours there too .. its very beautiful. I was going to pick out a photo from when we were there, but unfortunately they all have identifiable people in them .. so I cant. 😔

How is your poor head today? I hope you managed at least your 5 hours of decent sleep overnight.

Will be back later to see your photos.

Sherry 💕

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💜🌸 @Lee82 🌸💜

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Thanks for that little check in bub, I am hoping you are just super busy today and nothing else. Always on my mind. Love you 3000 Mel. 💜Izzy

@Lee82

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