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Darkness

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Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Sitting alone feeling lonely yet I don't want to talk anyone. I can't get today's session out of my head, nor the look on my niece's face when she FaceTimed to tell me he dad had passed. She begged me to come up tonight and be with her and the rest of my family and I had to tell her no. She was so heartbroken and hung up on me. I don't blame her amd I know she didn't mean to hurt my feelings, she has history on her side as in the pass all she had to do was ask and no matter what I was doing or had happening for me I was there. Feeling numb, lonely and very exhausted

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Emelia8Senior Contributor

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@Former-Member ... I'm really sorry Izzy. About everything ... the eventual passing of your ex-BIL, your niece's pain, your own hurt feelings, your sense of not being there for others and the fact you are unable to get your psych session out of your head tonight.

Feeling lonely, yet not wanting to talk. Feeling numb, lonely and exhausted. Not knowing what you want or need.

Its a really difficult time for you Izzy. I'm about to head off to bed here, but if you'd like company ... I can keep my phone on for a while. Tag me.

Offering you a sympathetic shoulder to cry on if thats what you need. Or to sit in companionable silence. Sending love. And ... I'm very sorry for your loss. 😔💔

Emelia 💞🤗🌹

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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@Former-Member so sorry for your loss my dear friend 🤗💞

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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Unknown userMember

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Thanks @Emelia8 , @Anastasia @Bunniekins , your support is truly appreciated.

@Lee82 , I have to admit that I am growing very concerned about you my love. I don't know weather or not your saw my post about closing this account. That should happen in the next 24 hours, but I will be signing back up with a new username. Love you 3000

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