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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member @Lee82 👋🌻

@Shaz51 🌻💕

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🌸🌸🌸🥀🐲🍄🌹🌷🐚 @Lee82 kimmy 💙💙💙💙

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That sounds like a good plan my love. I am the same in that if I take my night meds when I am highly anxious and on edge they don't really work. Sometimes I just have to take them just so They can help calm me down but when I do that I don't really get to sleep much.
I am once again on the couch hiding under my blanket while the boys are watching tv. I just can't seem to get up to put them to bed tonight.
@Former-Member feeling like I can't move. It is already an hour past Mr9's bedtime. 😢 I am struggling to even do the most simplest of things right now.

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Hey my beautiful kimmy. How are you sweetheart?
I am so very excited to see your fairy garden when it's finished.
🧚🧚‍♀️🧚‍♂️
I have missed you so very much. 💗

@Former-Member

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@outlander Hey little one. How have you been?

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Trying to hang in there @Lee82 just watching abit of tv and crocheting. Quite drained though mentally ans physically

How are you?

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Remember it's ok, you are dealing with so much that it is no wonder you get overwhelmed. As long as Mr 9 will be able to get up for school then there is no harm in letting him stay up a little. Remember they love you very much and they understand your band days.

I am switching a lot tonight so I may have to sign off very soon as it's getting harder to type a post. Love you heaps sweetheart @Lee82

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Feeling much the same as you. Trying to stay present as best I can @outlander

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My grandma tried to teach me to knit and crochet but failed big time every time😂 You are doing amazing my friend. You power through with everything you have going on. You are strong and courageous and you inspire me to do better everyday. I will sit with you and offer you my shoulder to rest on. @outlander

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That's ok beautiful. I understand. I hope you are able to get some sleep babe and that the switching settles.

love you 3000

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