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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lots of love to you @Lee82 💕

Your so sweet @Former-Member thank you 💜
I cannot knit, not for the the life of me! It took me a little bit to pick up the crocheting but im getting there. I cant read patterns or anything and i still get confused with some of the terms they use for the different stitches but i learn off youtube.

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D2, is crocheting dragon gloves for a cosplay, she taught herself by watching YouTube. I am just not that talented 🤣 Good night little one I hope there is a little rest for you tonight. @outlander

Good night my love. @Lee82

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Im not that talented either lol ive made aomw interesting things though @Former-Member
I hope you can get some sleep too

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I just wanted to leave you with this beautiful.
I bought myself some wrist bands the other day and one of them I bought that reminds me of you and so that I will always have you with me everywhere I go. @Former-Member

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I hear you dear @Former-Member 🙏🌸☀️🌼🦋🌹💞

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Ohhh Mel, I love them. 💙💙 How are you doing today? It's been a rough one here. I forgot to answer you but no MH appointments today, I have one tomorrow and on Friday. Tomorrow's is with a psychiatrist for workcover so that will be interesting 😔 She will determine weather or not I ready to go back to work!! She doesn't know me I have seen her once before for workcover and that's it. She has no idea of my treatment or anything. Love you to the moon @Lee82

@Anastasia , Thank you lovely 💙🍰🌸

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Hey beautiful. I am so sorry but I have no words tonigjt jyst know rhat I love you with alk my heart. I will be thsinking of yiu tomorrow while you are at yiur appointment. I truly don't understand how she is the one to deternins wheyher you can go bac to work or nit especialy without all tbs facts. That is bukkshit

i habe to admit I am a little worried about you my love. I read yohr worry post.
I trult hop you are as safe as your an be.
@Former-Member my wondertful BFF

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Please be safe, reach out to someone if you need to my love. I hate to see you struggling so much but I know you have got this as paint as it is, as hard as it is you can make it through. I believe in you. Love 3000 to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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@Lee82 @Former-Member 💕💜💙💚

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I am safe me love. I an wirn my brothwr

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