Darkness

Oh @Former-Member 😔🌼🌸

My love I am in tears right now. My heart is breaking for you. I have no words right now except to say I love you and will always love and care about you. You are my beautiful Angel
I understand the need to feel safe especially here when that is the main goal of the forum. I am very sorry if it has been compromised and hope with every being of my body and soul that this doesn't mean you will be leaving the forum.
@Former-Member

FB are the lowest of lows and the worst thing in the world and my heart hurts for you hun. I know what you are feeling and I am so very sorry it ended with you having to cut your hair. 😢😢

Oh no @Former-Member ... I am sorry to hear that your privacy may have been compromised.

Yes of course you have to feel safe, and you need to do whatever you have to ... in order to BE safe.

Let us know what you decide.

Also ... I love the sound of your new pixie cut hairdo. You have not lost your femininity at all ... pixie cuts are SOO feminine looking. Glad it has resulted in calming you, though devastated that it has caused other issues for you.

I hope you can resolve your Sane account issues very soon. Much love to you dear lady.

Emelia 🤗💞☕🍦

Thank you all for your support it means the world to me. I am waiting for night meds to kick in but it doesn't seem likely to happen. I am going to say goodnight however as I need to find something to calm me enough to sleep. Sending you all the best wishes for a decent nights rest hoping your Tuesday is bright amd loving. @Emelia8 @outlander @Anastasia @Bunniekins

@Lee82 , sweetheart I am not going anywhere, just have to work it out that's all. Love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always Izzy ❤️❤️

@Former-MemberHey beautiful wishing you love and kindness my dearest friend. You are indeed a wonderful lady. Love peaxxx

Just popping in to say hi to all the wonderful people here. Life is testing us all right now, on many levels and all of us here are struggling with something or many things. When I can be here the support is wonderful and has kept me from doing harmful behaviours an number of times. This platform and the members here have been a important part of my road to recovery and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

This is one of the places we all know that understands the depth of pain, the roughness of the road to recovery. We all know that sometimes just waking up is enough, just remembering to eat is enough. What some of lose sight of is that at no matter how much life has damaged us we are enough. We deserve happiness, we deserve love, we deserve to be safe. My wish for us all is that while we all are walking our own paths, some of us ahead of the the pack and some falling behind, is that we all walk hand in hand, supporting and caring for each for as long as it takes for all of us to find peace. I very much hope for all of us that peace can come sooner then later.

I am feeling very disconnected today, I feel like I have lost my path. I am having fbs but I am not sure they actually happened or a product of an over active imagination and trauma. I have to start writing them down to discuss in my MH appointments as we start to pull apart my very essence of who I am. This is not going to be easy, I have dark moments where I have not looked in years, I know that there are aspects of myself yet to be discovered by me (they have spoken up in MH appointments) what this means I am

unsure. I choose to write this this afternoon rather than Indulge in harmful behaviours. I choose now to be in more control of my thoughts and my actions. The people that have mistreated me in my life have stolen enough, I am taking control of what is left of me and I will start to build a life I can be proud of. I know I will stumble along the way, I may even go backwards at time and that is ok. If recovery was easy then none of us would know each other.

If you made it this far 👏👏👏👏👏 thank you all Sending everyone love and light.
@Bunniekins @Emelia8 @Lee82 @outlander @Anastasia @Sans911 @Zoe7 @Eve7 @MDT @Judi9877 @Angels333 @Shaz51 @Maggie @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope @Lostandalone @frog @mudsum @Purplerain @Owlunar @The-red-centaur @Eden1919 @Snowie and to anyone who has ever helped me in anyway here. ❤️

@Former-Member 👂👀🙏🤗💞

Hi @Former-Member

You wrote

I choose to write this this afternoon rather than Indulge in harmful behaviours. I choose now to be in more control of my thoughts and my actions. The people that have mistreated me in my life have stolen enough, I am taking control of what is left of me and I will start to build a life I can be proud of. I know I will stumble along the way, I may even go backwards at time and that is ok. If recovery was easy then none of us would know each other.

That's all so true. We would not know each other if we had not been in the dark places and the shadows at some stage/s of our lives. I actually feel enriched with my dark times. I was really forced to look at myself and change

And yes - those people who have mistreated you, me, anyone else, have had enough of our lives. They have stolen enough of our time.

I saw something on TV last night - the story of a high profile couple who had been controlled by their family and that family had not allowed the young woman to seek help for her suicidal thoughts and fears. Not allowed - that was so sad for me. There was so much more

I come from a racist and controlling family - I gave them enough time and left for years at a time sometimes - it was hard but worth it

And I am glad you are choosing to post here rather than do harm to yourself. That is a sound choice. I hope your day looks better and know that there are other people who have been hurt by others who seek to dominate them and this is not user-friendly behaviour for anyone. It's not easy to pull the good parts of ourselves together - and also know that the shadows are part of ourselves too and maintain a healthy respect for them and keep them in their place

All the best today - I really feel for you and hope things look better. I'm so glad you have a therapist

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