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Thanks @Anastasia I am trying as hard as it is at the moment. I am not too sure what to do for dinner tonight. 🤷‍♀️
Might just be 2 minute noodle night. 🤦‍♀️

I've started a new diamond painting too @Former-Member . Got it all out, straightened, and everything ready to go earlier in the week. Started adding some drills today.

My latest one is a sailing boat at sunset. Its the largest canvas I've attempted so far ... 45cm x 60cm.

I will see if I can get a pic of what it will look like when finished.

Thanks @Lee82 a lazy couple of days may be what I need, but I'm totally sick of myself.

@Anastasia 😄💖

Emelia

Honey that sucks about your GP appointment. Because of a medical procedure I had, I no longer have to have that test done. But good effort getting out with your boy this morning and for walking Boris. See you are doing something else today, I know you can get through all of this, you are one strong lady. I will attach a quick pic at where I am up too with my diamond painting. Enjoy your walk lovely. @Lee82 @Emelia8

Oh wow would love to see a pic of your sail boat hun. I have had zero motivation in doing any of my diamond paintings. I am so frustrated by it because it's just sitting in my room collecting dust.
why do you say your so sick of yourself hun? You have had to deal with a hell of a lot of :pile_of_poo: lately. You need a lazy moment. A moment to recoup.
@Emelia8

It has been one super tough few days to get through especially because I have had no one I can talk to. My psych has gone on holidays and I won't be seeing her for another 2 weeks.
cany wait for the pic to load hun. @Former-Member

Oh no @Lee82 ... I totally understand your anxiety around the Pap test. Oh dear, yuk yuk. My GP attempted to do my latest one too .. and failed because of my over the top reaction. I too was left highly traumatised. And of course it also happened to coincide with a trauma anniversary, this making it that much worse. That was just on a year ago now. Or maybe 2? It seems like only a year ago. Anyway, I ended up doing a do-it-yourself test. If you ask your GP they should approve that for you. You need to have a legitimate reason for it to be approved, but a history of SA is enough. Your GP has to approve it for you. You will be given an easy to use diy kit. You just go into the bathroom, get the sample yourself, then hand the pack back to the nurse for sending off for testing.

@Former-Member love your latest diamond painting.

Emelia

Wow my love that is amazing and will look awesome once finished. @Former-Member

This is a pic of the diamond painting I am currently working on. @Former-Member @Lee82 @Anastasia @Bunniekins @Eve7

Or at least when I finish it .. it should look something like this.

Emelia

My GP told me about the take home test but she doesn't think they will allow me to do one because it's been 9 years since my last 😕. Feeling very deflated about it all. Just another reminder how messed up I am and broken. This will never end and I will never be loved again.
@Emelia8

Omg that is beautiful @Emelia8

loving the warm colours. So relaxing to look at.