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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Done very little all weekend @Lee82 😔🌷

Hi @Former-Member lovely lady.

Gidday @Bunniekins @Eve7 @Anastasia

Love to each of you.

Em 💞

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That's ok @Emelia8 we are allowed to have a lazy weekend from time to time and I know you have been quite busy during the week so a relaxing weekend before the start of another busy week is probably a good thing.

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@Anastasia How have you been hun?

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@Lee82 wrote:

@Anastasia How have you been hun?


Hi @Lee82 I'm ok thank you. Just sitting for a bit before I start on veggies for a baked dinner. How are you are you ok hun?

@Emelia8

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Oh wow a baked dinner. One of my favs. What you having?
loved mr M the meerkat BTW. He is so cute.
I'm hanging in there. Have a hell of a lot of anxiety today so I have tried getting outside seeing as it's a nice warm day. Took Mr9 to the footy oval to play a little footy. Mr13 is with his friends at the movies. Willl take Boris for a walk soon too.
@Anastasia

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Hey gorgeous, my night wasn't too bad actually. First time in a long time I slept for 5 hours straight so that was a good start. We have been to Bunnings to buy rocks for the rock wall of the Fairy Kingdom 🤦🏻‍♀️ Had a melt down in Bunnings because a man got a little to close to me. Sitting doing my diamond painting again trying to block stuff out.

How has your Sunday been Mel? @Lee82

How is my pea today? @Bunniekins

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Good for you getting out @Lee82

He is cute. I have left him on my side table next to my spot on the couch, so he's always with me 🙂

Sorry you had a melt down @Former-Member , some people have no idea about personal space 😔

Love to you both I'm off now xoxo

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Oh hun I am so sorry to hear about your meltdown but so very very proud of you for being able to get out and do something. That is fantastic and you should be very proud of yourself too.
my Sunday has been riddled with a hell of a lot of anxiety and I have been trying to get out myself. Took Mr9 to kick the footy around before and about to take Boris for a walk now.
Flashbacks and my little episodes have come back with a vengeance since my gp tried to give me a Pap smear couple days ago. Did not get done and I was traumatised all over again. It's been 9 years since I have had one so very much needing to get it done but I just couldn't get through it 😕

I would absolutely love to see a pic of your diamond painting when it's finished babe.

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Hope you enjoy your Sunday afternoon @Anastasia

I nearly brought the same Mr M this morning while out.

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Sorry hun forgot to tag you I. The above post. My brain isn't working very well at the moment.

@Former-Member

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