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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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You ok my love?

@Former-Member

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Have I said something wrong?

@Former-Member

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wow love the pictures @Former-Member , @Emelia8

@Bunniekins, @Anastasia , @Lee82

Hugs

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I am so sorry to all for everything I have said. It seems I can't say or do anything right at the moment. I have just been feeling very lost and alone and the only release I get is here on this forum. The only support and advice I get is from here besides my psych. I understand what I say would be traumatising and perhaps triggering to some and that's why I find it so difficult to be so open about things. But knowing this and knowing that everyone here is struggling in their own way unfortunately doesn't help stop me feeling hurt when I try and open up. I am so sorry to everyone especially to you my beautiful BFF IZZY. I have been very selfish wanting more from you than you can give right now. I think about you all day everyday and I know that you are hurting too and need support too and you know I am always here for you. I understand that you may feel like I am getting more than I deserve from you and others here on the forum and you are right. Sometimes I just need some compassion, some support and some advice and also some sort of direction or even just a little comfort.

@Former-Member @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Shaz51 @Bunniekins @Eve7 @outlander

and I am so very sorry if I have missed a few people not functioning very well at the moment

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@Lee82 Are you around

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@Lee82 , let me know when your back honey. I will check as regularly as I can

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I am here @Former-Member

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You are my favourite goose ever!!!!! @Lee82

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Right now I have the attention span of a gold fish and I am sleeper than the cutest sloth 🦥 my medications are keeping me kinda doppy right now. So I can fall asleep in a blink of an eye or get distracted like a toddler. You have said nothing wrong and I am giving you what I can and no more. You deserve more, but I finally understand that time away is import too. Love you princess @Lee82

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Absolutely nothing to apologise for @Lee82 🌷🌻

@Former-Member 🌹

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