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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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😘 @Zoe7 😘

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@Former-Member Honey you ok?

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@Lee82 wrote:

@NatureLover little worried about you hun as I haven't seen you around for a while. I hope you are ok. 💙


Hi @Lee82 , thanks for not forgetting me...I still have the dreaded burnout so my psychologist has said that I must stay on my own thread for a while. The alternative was taking 3 months off the forums entirely. I miss you all...I hope you are coping OK...I'm glad you enjoyed your trip to Qld 💚

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Going to my nieces birthday party today and I have just found out ex husband is going to be there. I was not prepared for this. He wasn't supposed to be going. I don't know if I can do this. I am freaking out. 😢

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I am so sorry to hear that babe. I will try my best to pop over to your thread and catch up on things as I have missed you. I'm so sorry I haven't been around. It has been difficult for me to wonder around too. I shall do my best hun.

sending you love and hugs ❤️💚💜💙🧡💛❤️
@NatureLover

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My love I am worried about you hun. Very worried. How did it go with your son last night?

sending you all the strength I have and all my love beautiful 💝💞💕💓💗

@Former-Member

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@Anastasia how you feeling my love? Just want you to know that you have been on my mind constantly I am hoping you are ok babe.
sending you hugs beautiful ❤️💚💜🧡💙❤️

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Oh dear @Lee82 that doesn’t sound good. I can hide in your pocket and keep you safe.

💜💜💜

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I wish you could come with me too @Eve7 would be nice to have someone there who understands.
flashbacks, anxiety feeling sick and I have a massive lump in my throat because all I want to do is cry.

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Take your phone hun, I’m just a tag away @Lee82

💜🤗💜

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