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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you beautiful @Former-Member

I appreciate your messages more than you know as I know you have a lot going on yourself so it really is very special.

Enjoy your time with your boy, I will have you in my thoughts xox

Hello @Lee82 I hope you are settling back in, I would think the boys gos back to school next week so you are hopefully enjoying more fun times with them. x

Hope your day is running to plan @Bunniekins x

Hello @Emelia8 @MDT @Schitzo and all passing through 🙂

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Good to see you @Anastasia 🙂

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@Lee82 @Former-Member

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Thinking of you my love while you are home with your son. I hope it all goes well beautiful

love you to the moon and back.
@Former-Member 💗💖💝💞💕💓

@Anastasia sending you some love and hugs my dear friend. I know you are going through a hell of a lot right now. Just wanted you to know I got you.
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@Zoe7 hope you are doing ok my friend. ❤️

@Emelia8 I hope all is well and your treatment is going well to hun. 💜

@Eve7 thinking of you my friend hoping you are ok.❤️

@outlander I hear you beautiful. Sending you some gentle hugs hoping that things will improve for you. 💗

@Shaz51 @Sans911 @Snowie hoping your Friday has been a good one. 💚🧡💜

@NatureLover little worried about you hun as I haven't seen you around for a while. I hope you are ok. 💙

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Not good at the moment @Lee82 but will get there.

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@Anastasia Hey hunny I somehow missed you in the loop. My day went so well. I was able to get 90% off my chest which is more than I expected. Now I have to try and close the chapter of my book which is causing me so much grief and give myself wriggle room to forgive myself. Forgiving myself is the hard part. I find forgiving others for dreadful things easy but forgiving myself neigh impossible :(x

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Anything you want to talk about my friend. I am here if you need. @Zoe7

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Thank you for the offer @Lee82 but I will be okay. Put it all on Far and Away thread and will leave it there

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That is fair enough hun. I would like to check it out of that is ok with you. @Zoe7

Sending you some hugs hun. Take it easy babe.
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Of course it is Hon @Lee82

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