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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hi all my forum family. Marcoola is beautiful. We have amazing accommodation here with a breathtaking view of the ocean. We are so close that we can hear the waves. We also have our very own roof top area with deck chairs and bbq. I never want to leave this place.
today we are going to spend the day at the beach and by the pool.

hoping everyone's day today has a little sparkle in it and that you find some moments of peace. Sending you all hugs. ❤️💜💙💚🧡💛❤️

here are some pics of our view.

@Former-Member @Eve7 @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Anastasia @Emelia8 @NatureLover @Faith-and Hope @Snowie @outlander

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My love I am hoping you are feeling a little better today. I will hold you very close to my heart.
love you unconditionally beautiful

@Former-Member ❤️

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Certainly has the WOW factor @Lee82

☀️🏄🏻‍♂️🏊‍♀️☀️

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@Lee82 Hey Lee82 picture post card photos. Glorious weather too. I hope you have a wonderful time. Love pea

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@Lee82 thank you sweetheart xx

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@Emelia8 Hey hunny. I love you so much. peaxxx

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Hey honey. Would love to hear from you gorgeous. Hoping you are ok. Love you always and forever @Former-Member 💗

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Hope u are enjoying yourself up the Mel. @Lee82

@Emelia8, I haven't been able to catch up with what went wrong today but I am truly sorry that this has happened to you. Please know you are never alone even if I am not here you are never far from my thoughts. Kimmy said to tell you that she looooooooooooooooves bery much.

Opps Mel, I am in so much trouble because I didn't tell you that Kimmy loves and misses you so much.

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I'm so sorry hun. I went to reply and my internet crashed for some reason. Actually I think it has something to do with the fact that Mr9 was hotspotting off me and there was just too much happening at once.

oh sweet kimmy I have missed you little one. I love you very much and hope that you are ok.

izzy beautiful I also hope you are doing ok my love. It has been way too long without you. I miss you.
love you always and forever. @Former-Member ❤️

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My dearest friend, I am so sorry that I haven't been around and am sorry for any pain cause to you because of this. I just can't Mel, there is too much pain, too much hurt to be here to have to go through everyday. I sound like a coward I know, but it hurts Mel, it hurts too much. Just know that you have become so much to me I carry you in my heart no matter how much is aching. Wishing I could tell you everything but the rules are the rules. Ok babe, I have to go now. Love always Izzy


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