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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Oh my beautiful BBF, thank you so very much for messaging me. I know how hard it is for you right now to be here so I truly appreciate it hun.
my heart hurts for you babe so very much. Oh how I wish I could be there with you right now. You have not cause me any pain babe. I am just so very sorry that you hurting so much.
I wish there was more I could do for you.
I love you more than life itself beautiful and again thank you so much for messaging me. It meant more to me than I can ever describe. I have tears running down my face right now.
@Former-Member Izzy ❤️

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Please don't cry Mel, I was unaware that Bella

had sent you a message. I am so sorry to have upset you so early in the morning. 😔 what are your plans for today? That view is amazing, I was we where sharing a morning cuppa there. I have a two hour session with my favourite Nat this morning amd that will most likely knock the stuffing out of me but worse still we have had very little sleep. Love you 3000 @Lee82

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Oh no please don't feel bad hun. You are my best friend and I wouldn't be a great friend if I didn't feel anything babe. I am ok hun. So was it Izzy that wrote or is Bella one of your alters?

we are off to Noosa today. I got burnt bad yesterday and I am feeling it today. Lol self inflicted as I didn't put sunscreen on.
I also didn't have much sleep last night. I had around 3 hrs.
so proud of you hun for continuing to see your Nat. I understand just how tiring it is babe doing 1 hour can't imagine how tired you are after 2.
take it easy today babe. Love you 3000.
@Former-Member

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@Lee82 , sorry Izzy is Bella that's what the outside world calls her. So yes it was Izzy. I have done my session with Nat amd spent way to much at the glitter shop now we are chilling by the beach eating lunch/dinner. How has your day gone?

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Dropping off some 💞💗💖☕🌷🥛🍛

for you both @Lee82 @Former-Member

Dizzy how is your boy doing hun, have you been able to see him?

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Hey hun. How you doing this morning?
linch/dinner on the beach sounds wonderful my love. How is your son doing honey? And word on his progress/discharge?

yeaterday we spent the day in Noosa. Omg...I cannot believe how damn busy it was. It was breathtaking. We ate lunch at the surf club over looking the beach. The food was beautiful and the view even better.

Here are a couple pics of Noosa.

my love I hope you are doing ok today. I love you with all my heart.
@Former-Member

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Hey beautiful how you feeling today? When is your dr's appointment.
today we are off to the eumundi market then taking the kids to a water park.
sending you some hugs babe hoping you are doing ok. ❤️💚💙💜🧡💛 @Anastasia

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Noosa looks spectacular!!!

Today sounds glorious @Lee82 enjoy xxx

It was yesterday. He thinks it's definitely an auto immune disease probably lupus. I had some blood tests to compare the results to the last ones a year ago. I'll get the results Tuesday.

Still in a considerable amount of pain and low energy but happy it's the weekend 😊💖😘

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Oh hun I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you can find some relief babe soon.
Enjoy your weekend my love sending you hugs. 💗 @Anastasia

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My love thinking of you gorgeous. Hope you are ok.
we just came back from taking the kids to Bli Bli Aqua park. They loved it and want us to take them again. I have to admit it was pretty funny seeing just how unco they were with no sense of balance. 😂😂

@Former-Member love you always and forever.

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