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Darkness

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Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Well done @Lee82 , 2 theme parks in a day is a massive undertaking!!

You must have been cold st Wet n Wild with that big wind...you’re a tough Victorian!

I hope the rest of your holiday is just as successful.

Lots of love to you and also @Former-Member

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@Former-Member 💕

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@Dizzizzy 🙂

"I haven't laughed so much or so hard in a very long time, I was so scared I was going to wet my pants"

This made me chuckle. I had this experience recently. It really is good to be caught off guard and laugh hysterically at something genuinely hilarious. I did it the other day at night and my folks and sister were really surprised. I couldn't catch my breathe I was laughing so hard.

I'm glad you got a good chuckle today

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@Former-Member above tag

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Thanks to all for your encouragement. I don't have the capacity to respond as it has been an extremely difficult and tiring day but I promise I will get to my responses tomorrow and fill you in on what we have planned for the day.

@Eve7 @Zoe7 @outlander @Emelia8 @Anastasia

my love I am also so very proud of you for getting through both your sessions and then having enough to also get your nails done. That is awesome. I had the biggest smile on my face when I read about how much you laughed. That is wonderful and very warming to hear.
Beautiful I truly have no words other than what I wrote to give tonight. I am so sorry. My brain has turned to mush and I just cannnot think any longer. I will respond better to your message tomorrow I just wanted you to know that I love you with all my heart and that I am damn proud of you babe.
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I hope you sleep well tonight @Lee82 and that you awake refreshed ready to face the day.

Sweet dreams

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Sleep well @Lee82

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Good night @Zoe7

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Nighty night @Eve7 Hope you sleep well too Hon

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Good morning @Former-Member, I'm glad you found a gentle and understanding nail technician, I Hope you have a lovely day 😊

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