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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you @Anastasia

@how have you been hun?

how is your boy going?

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Hi @Lee82

I'm good thank you. My boys doing pretty well ATM too. Hope you have a lovely break x

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That's so lovely to hear hun. How is work going?
we have just come home from wet n wild. We spent the Morning at movie world and the afternoon at wet n wild. We had lots of fun however I had a massive panic attack waiting in line for one of the water slides. Was not pretty but I recovered ok and kept going. So proud of myself cause in the past I would have packed up and left. With the kids around it makes me want to keep going.
hope your day today was a good day hun. Sending you lots of hugs and love. ❤️💚💜💙💛🧡

@Anastasia

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Your day sounds lovely, such great places for the boys..and GO YOU Mel!!!!!

Super proud of you and you should be too.

Kicking goals hun. Keep going xxx

Love and hugs ❤️💞🤗

@Lee82

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Hey beautiful how did you go today with the 2 Nats? Did you end up getting your nails done?
I had been thinking of you all day today.
love you so much gorgeous and hoping you are doing ok.
@Former-Member

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Firstly to all my wonderful friends who have tagged me today, thank you. I be tried to make

sure I at least hit the support button, please know that all of those tags really do bring a smile to my face and warms my heart it also reminds me that I am not alone. Again a hug thank you.

Mel, I wish I could give you a hug right now and let you know just how amazing you are for getting through that attack and kept on going for the rest of your day. I am so so very proud of you my love. Did you enjoy the two theme parks? Did anyone do the scobby coaster at Movieworld that is my favourite ride then it would be the superman roller coaster. Wet wild is my granddaughter's favourite theme park she has no fear that kids and does rides with hubby that I wouldn't dare. Are you guys going to SeaWorld? Shark bay and the Dolphin show are my favourite things to do there and the stunt show is pretty cool as well.

My boy seems a little calmer today but he is looking forward to his Red Roster tomorrow he found out today that he is at least in there till Monday. I am hoping that I can see his treating team and get some answers on how they are treating him. As usual anytime I have two Natalie's in one day I am exhausted but went well but especially my last one with Nat. Her energy clearings and healing methods really bring back to myself when I am feeling disconnected. Nails went well and probably the best therapy of the day. I haven't laughed so much or so hard in a very long time, I was so scared I was going to wet my pants the owner even brought us ice cream from the home ice cream man. I have done the dishes, walking around the house aimlessly trying to stay awake so hopefully I can sleep through the night.

Sorry for not replying to everyone. Hoping you all

sleep sweet amd have a good day as head of you tomorrow.

@Lee82 @Anastasia @Zoe7 @TAB @frog @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @Angels333 @MDT @NatureLover @Shaz51 @Maggie @outlander

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Hi @Former-Member thanks for the tag , read back a bit, tried to make sense of conv lol

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🥰❤😀 @Former-Member

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It sounds like you have had a lot of good in your day despite your continued concerns for your boy @Former-Member Great to hear you laughed so much Hon

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