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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey my love. We have finally settled in. Had to go shopping and organise dinner for the kids. I have to say I am pooped. Think it will be an early night for all. Mr9 is a little down at the moment. He is like me and struggles with being away from home. He is already nagging me to go home 😞

man I can't believe how damn hot it is here. I am sweating bullets. So not use to it...lol

definitely feels strange being in the same state as you my love. I so wish I can catch up with you.
hoping you get a good nights rest beautiful.
take care of you. Love you always and forever ❤️
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Hi to all my forum family. We have made it safe and sound in Queensland. The flight was ok. A little bumpy and I was a little anxious and had to remember to breath but all in all I think I did pretty well. Better than I expected anyway.
not has been a very busy day getting organised here with car rentals and accommodation stuff and shopping and unpacking etc. feeling very tired and might head off to bed soon as I suspect tomorrow will be the start of some very busy days.
hope you are all doing well. Sending you all my love.

@Former-Member @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Eve7 @Zoe7 @NatureLover @Faith-and Hope @Snowie @outlander @Sans911

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Welcome to Qld @Lee82

I hope you have a wonderful time and there isn’t too much rain.

Stay safe.

💛🏄🏻‍♂️💛

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Thanks @Eve7 we hope there isn't too much rain either as it hasn't stopped since we got here. 😕

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Enjoy your holiday @Lee82 😘🤗💞

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Good morning beautiful, hope you managed some decent rest last night. I am sure Mr 9 will be ok once the fun starts. What are you guys doing today? I am off to see both Nat's today and since we are over that way I will get my nails done. I remember you telling Izzy you would like the heat oppose to Melbourne weather😂🥵🥵🥵 We have had some hot days here recently. We will be taking off for our holiday Saturday as we can't see my son till Friday afternoon 😤😢 Apart from getting out of there he just wants real food.

I don't think I have shared the story of my nail technician. I was at my favourite shop in the world (glitter shop) a couple of weeks before my nephew's wedding and talking to the owner when she asked if I was getting my nails done for the wedding and I told her truthfully that I wouldn't be able to sit still long enough of have anyone touch my hands for so long because of MH issues. She replied she had the perfect lady for me. When I meant her she told me she also suffered from MH issues and that all I had to do was tell her I need a break. I have been getting my nails done with her ever since, she is sweet and gentle and is already able to tell if I need a break.

I hope that everyone has a good day. @Lee82 @Anastasia @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @Zoe7 @outlander @Sans911 @NatureLover @Maggie @oceangirl @BlueBay @MDT @TAB @Bunniekins @Adge @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar

@Angels333 @frog @Schitzo and anyone else passing through

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That's good that you could share and it ended up well with the nail person @Former-Member Not up to much today. Apparently centerlink ringing me this morning for some sort of assessment, they claimed were doing it yest out of the blue. Got a headache. watching tv. I should go for a walk soon. Thanks for the tag.

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Hi @Former-Member @TAB hope it's a good one. Trying to get myself to work. It isn't going well!

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Do what you have to do @frog I couldnt get to work the other day, well so I dont think I work there anymore lol

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Good luck today hun with both Nats. That is going to be a huge day for you. I will keep you in my heart and carry you around with me.
Wow your nail lady sounds very special. I am so glad you have found someone who can pamper you a little. That is amazing hun.
I totally get what your son is saying about the food. It is Terrible. Are you able to take some food in there for him?
we are off to movie world this morning and if the weather gets a little hotter will go to wet n wild.
love you 300 my beautiful BFF.
Us melbernians love the hot weather plus I'm European so it's in my blood....lol

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