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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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So very knowledgeable @Zoe7 and thank you so very much for sharing it with me. My psychologist has also told me that I must do something for myself everyday on the trip. It will be a very hard and challenging task for me but I promised I would do my best to do that.

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How you you feeling hun? @Eve7

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My beautiful BFF how are you?

@Former-Member

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Bit of a rough day @Lee82 but I’m ok enough.

Your holiday sounds good but I understand your anxiety. That’s a good idea from your psych. Mine has me doing similar.

I’ll have to go Christmas shopping tomorrow before the shops get too crazy. It will be a good distraction.

❤️💚❤️

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So sorry to hear that hun. Sitting with you. Shopping is a great distraction hun. I hope you get everything you need.
yea not looking forward to the holiday at all. I know that sounds very ungrateful

@Eve7

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Morning sweetie, I was not able to more then hit the support button last night. I am already on the road this morning for my MH appointment with the new Natalie, so not looking forward to it. I have almost finished all Christmas presents and then back to some good old paint pouring. Hubby is going to resin your smile sign that Kimmy made you and then it will hang over our computer where I will see it everyday. @Lee82

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@Former-Member @Lee82 💙💜💛🤍

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Good morning fourm family, happy Friday. I am hoping you are all planning some me time over the weekend. My breakfast view this morning is absolutely peaceful (accept the noisy kids in the swimming pool behind me) so many families out and about early here. It is lovely to see them spending quality time with the little people in their lives, lots of grandparents tagging along as well.

Sending love, light and hugs to anyone that might need or just want them. You all matter, you all are important and I am blessed to know you all.

@Lee82 @outlander @Eve7 @Zoe7 @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @NatureLover @Sans911 @Anastasia @Snowie @Shaz51 @Maggie @frog @mudsum @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Angels333 @Schitzo @Purplerain @Calmblueocean

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Wow @Former-Member what a beautiful calming view for your breakfast this morning.

Hoping your day goes well too

Lots of love and hugs back to you too

💜💜

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Great view @Former-Member . We must be neighbours as my grandkids are already in the pool making a racket lol.

I know we’re not neighbours but next time I tell them to be quiet I’ll be thinking of you.

Have a lovely day

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