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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Dear @Former-Member , happy Friday ! I hope your day is a calm and peaceful one. My sister and I will be going to a Chinese takeaway this weekend.

Thank you for the lovely post, we are blessed to know you too ❤️

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@Former-Member friendship xx

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@Lee82 , hey gorgeous hope you are ok. Love u

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Not doing well today my love. I have spent the day sleeping and haven't gotten out of bed.
how have you been today? How did your appointment go with the new Nat? Your view this morning looked very calming hun. I hope it helped.

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There you are honey. I am sorry today has been so horrible for you, sending you big squishy hugs. It was my last appointment for the year amd the hour sure did go quick with Nat, but we have mapped a plan of attack to move forward next year. I made the decision today that I refuse to suffer the way I have this year again. Now that sounds great but it's not easy with alters coming and going as they please, some not liking the road I have chosen because Izzy amd Nikki are choosing not to be apart of this and have been gone for longer then normal so I picked a direction amd that is where I am heading. I have been thinking about your trip to QLD and I have come up some things the kids would love and things that maybe you shouldn't try doing with them, I am too tried now to type that out but I will tomorrow. Found out today that hubby wants to take me back home (outback qld in summer 🥵🥵🥵) in January. What he doesn't realise is that is where the abuse started and where the most horrific ones happened to me in my teenage years. When good intentions go wrong. Hope you sleep ok tonight my love. 💜 Kim. @Lee82

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Hey beautiful. I just want to apologise in advance for my post. My brain is not working right at the moment so it may not make sense or be as detailed as I would normally write:

I am so very happy to hear you have decided to try and not have another year like you did this year. I think that is an amazing goal to have and that fills me with warmth. However I can understand it will be hard with having others in your head perhaps wanting other things. I can't imagine how difficult that would be.
I am so very sorry Izzy and Nikki have decided to not be around. I know that this is a tough time so please pass on my love and a hug for me Kim. Tell them that I love them and are always thinking of them.
I would love to hear your suggestions for my trip to qld. Was it that you are close to the Gold Coast? We have of course booked tickets to go to the theme parks. The boys are so excited about it. However with the new Covid cases in NSW we are a little worried we won't be able to make it there. Fingers crossed.

have to mentioned your concerns about goi g into the out a k with hubby hun. I am sure he will understand why you don't want to go. That is a very thoughtful suggestion I. His behalf and so sweet of hom but I'm sure he iwll understand


kim my love I hope you have a good weekend. I love you to the moon and back and that will never ever change. Missing you terribly. @Former-Member

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So what happens when you have child alters that can block you from knowing what they are doing you may ask???? The above happens 🤦🏻‍♀️ Also they have painted the brickwork outside and the garden has prettty boarders around them now 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷‍♀️ My life is all kinds of interesting 😩😩😂

@Lee82 @Bunniekins @Schitzo @Eve7 @Snowie @Zoe7 @outlander @NatureLover @Emelia8 @Sans911 and anyone else passing through that wants a giggle

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Waiting expectantly for the pic @Former-Member ... I could use a good giggle. 😄💕

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@Former-Member 🤣😞

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Oh @Former-Member ... Pic is through.

Wow .... N i c e ! Love the colours ... and they suit you. Ha ha 😂

The artwork is so clever. Naughty but nice little alters. 😈 😇

I guess you awoke to a nice surprise? Oops ... it will wash off wont it? 😯💓

Emelia 🌷

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