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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member 🙂 Thank you sweetheart. I wish the same to you always. Love peaxxx

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@Lee82 Hey Lee82 you sent pea a message whilst I was away liking my wounds but I cannot find it now. Just wanted to say hi and send you love pea.xxx

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Good morning @Former-Member @Lee82 @Bunniekins I hope there is some good in your days. Hugs and hugs for you all

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Thank you so much @Former-Member 🙏 You are very special to me too Izzy and I consider myself fortunate indeed to have had the opportunity to get to know you and some of your many alters just a little. I love and respect every aspect of you, because each is a part of you. And you are a pretty amazing woman. Of course I miss our daily interaction, but fully understand why you cannot be here as much. So sorry about all the triggering anniversaries you are encountering this month. I hope they pass with the least possible impact on you. 💞🤗

Waves also to Lovely @Lee82 Gorgeous @Bunniekins My dear friend @Anastasia Li'l One @outlander and (what can I say) @Zoe7 👋💕 I think of all of you every day, and hope life finally begins to treat you kindly.

Emelia 🌸

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What do you mean (what can I say?) @Emelia8 Sorry do not understand that

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Sorry @Zoe7 ... nothing rhymed with zoe, hence 'what can I say'. If you look at the other names I tagged eg Lovely Lee, Gorgeous Greenpea, My friend Myboy, etc. No hidden messages and no disrespect to you Zoe I assure you. A simple hello ... because I care about you. Please do not try to read things that are not there.

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I'm sorry if tagging you has upset you @Zoe7 ... I am happy to remove it, if thats what you want.

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Wasn't reading anything into it - just did not understand what you wrote @Emelia8 It is hard to rhyme with Zoe.

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My beautiful Izzy so so so good to see you here my love. Oh I have missed you terribly. I'm so sorry I havent been around. It has been an extremely rough road lately.
I hope you are as ok as you can be gorgeous.
love you so very much. @Former-Member ❤️

hello to all my forum friends. I am so sorry I have not been around and haven't caught up on all your news. It has been tough for me and my head has not been in a place where I could have supported anyone. You are all still very much in my thoughts and are all very special to me.
@Emelia8 @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @outlander @Anastasia @NatureLover @Eve7 ❤️💜💙💚💛

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Thank you @Former-Member

I always get excited when I see you here. It is lovely. Thank you for your friendship and lovely messages to all of us. Keep taking yof you xxxx

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